Upset & Dissapointed to the MAXIMUM!

I had pimple breakout, menses cramp (1st day), i was late, i didn't wear my pantyhose and to top it all today, I had an unfairly judgement for my appraisal.

Just because I didn't remember alot of facts (which I honestly told them), I was thus compared to someone who was not even on the same property. I wanna curse and farking swear in their faces, why am I being judged and compared to someone who didn't handled things that I did? Why is it that when I do good and great things, there is nobody that noticed? On days that I'm down, I was being judge so unfairly. It's fine by me. Tuhan tu Maha Adil. It's only coming 3 months, u don't expect me to get 10 compliments right?! Even at my previous place it took it what, 5 months to get noticed? Those that are currently in the same department took them 1 whole year! So what? I have 1 year background and nominated for Receptionist of The Year they THINK i can do magic is it? Yes I can do wonders, yes i can shine despite the rest and this particular thing is a whole new thing. Yes I know the map like the back of my hand and NO i don't normally make recommendation for high end food because I came from a god damn 4 star hotel! And which is why I didn't get through the finals!

I just hate it. First you said wrongly that i don't smile which i ALWAYS do at the counter. Yes, I may not always smile or say coming into the room and outburst a HI HELLO AMCM?? No. That's not me. I'm not an introvert. I just don't talk much. Secondly, punctuality. I am always on time but its not always on time that you do the briefing. And even tho i may appear that i'm lost in my world and caring about how i sweat so much just to do the annoying french up twist, i paid total attention. Unlike some people that doesn't even digest a thing. Haiz...I'm so utterly upset about this. This has affected me so much the whole day. It just made me wish one thing......

Park Hotel. Imiss doing Front Office there. I miss all of it, the idiotic people, the politics, my FOM, the carefreeness despite the low paying salary that is.

This is the 2nd time in my career i've been dissapointed. Perhaps it came from me myself. Perhaps NOT (which i think it is the case). Well, like i said, if it doesn't kill you - it only made you STRONGER!

I know there's alot of things that contributed to this 1 more month extended probation. I know maybe to some it doesn't mean anything, but to me it means so many. Yeah, what is one more month right? It's not just the month, it's what that have been said. If I have a choice, I wouldn't wanna work there too. Maybe it's true too, the drive for me is wrong. I'm init for the money. Well, who isn't?! SIGH! We'll see how this month goes. I need to have my holiday first, then I'll think about all this. In the meantime, let me wallow in self pity ;'(

aNd You CAN'T keeP a Good GirL doWN =-~{*}

Whatssup Facebookers??? OOppss. Wrong Channel ;p Let's try again...

Whatssup BloGGers!! I'mmmm back ;-) New job is doing very well. So well that I've received 2 hongbaos! Yeah.. 1 from the company ($8) and the other from Lancome Salon 360 ($20) and already twice I've gotten a $10 tip in a week! Alhamdullilah. There's random dinner invites to Waku Ghin, Tanjong Beach Resort, Big Easy, 1 Altitude.. but so far I've went to NONE! Yes, not one. Stupid? I dunno, you decide. All food are not halal and served alchohol and cocktails and stuffs. As ALL Muslims know, we can't drink or get drunk. Hilang kalimah dalam badan. Wallahualam.
Salon 360 has a facial/hair treatment/hair cut, shampoo & blow dry invitation for all of us. Wondering when to go. Gonna get the hair treatment. Make full use lah! ;p

Roster so far has been so nice to me but it affected our dating schedule. These few weeks I only get to see him once. And he's gonna layover at Osaka, Japan on Valentine's Day which so happens to be my off day. SIGH! I'm not too bothered about VDay. We can't celebrate anyway (it's actually the celebration of the downfall on Islam - read your Roman history) so I'm just gonna try to get a gerl date for some kite flying at Marina Barrage ;)
BUT BUT the day before we have planned for (2nd time in 2 weeks) a cycling cum picnic with the rest of the vocal peeps at Pulau Ubin. Gonna sit atop the Viewing Tower at Chek Jawa again. That's the closest that I can get to Koh Lanta, Krabi. The scenic - breatheless and romantic.
Can't freaking wait! After which we plan to head to Botak's Favourites..YUMMEH!!

Sidetracking abit...I'm trying to get back in shape again. Doing alternate days cardio and aerobics, daily crunches and sit ups and I think I might do jumping-jacks on my lazy days. I'm eating as pr normal what I always eat but keeping in mind, no soft drinks (coke at TDR is soooo tempting!) and no rice after 7. Heh...trying to make this a habit. Wanted to go jogging but too lazy to step out of the house. Wanted to sign up for California Fitness all access gym and dance classes but also couldn't find the time to go down to the shop. I know I know..EXCUSES! Haha. But why should I spend on transport when I can do it at the comfort of home?? Heheh ;p

Reason is simple, I need to save money for the wedding and I need to downsize before Nov next year! I know its still long but who says I can't start early?!

Talking about Nov, he plan to go Egypt. Before that we had surveyed for Barclona, Spain and Rome, Italy. It'll be on the Royal Carribean. Haha. Can you believe it? We estimated the prices for flight stopovers (if any) and accomodation and the itinerary and it's all for next year. Haha! Tak sabar kapeeee kite ni! Not looking forward to the wedding but the honeymoon. Haha. Oh yes, Aifa is 5 weeks pregnant! Wuhoo. Got hitched in mid Dec and BOOM! Congrats to her :) I can't wait for my turn too :D

Alright enough of me right now. The fiance apparently has 4 sector today but he didn't call me in between flights like he promised! Hmph! I'm gonna pull a long face later, bluek!

Ps: Won't pursue Airline industry anymore :) I'm very happy and comfortable (I knew it all along) at the Hospitality Industry. I'd rather keep people happy and hospitable rather than looking over the flight safety of people :) That has always been my passion.

Pps: Please shut you filthy trap ranting about your just-graduated cabin crew hooplah on your every farking fb status. F U! You wanna talk shit about it once in awhile I won't mind BUT PLEASE, not every one of it ok!!??

OK BYE!

{*}-= I'm ForEver Yours, Faithfully =-{*}

Shahid accompanied me to the doctor's today. He even stayed at home with me and we used the computer to continue our HKG planning :) Sweetness this man of mine. His reward? Mum cooked him his favourite, sambal telur. He ESP liked mum's sambal telur. *haha*

He brought me souvenirs that his mum bought for me from Bandung over their family's holiday with his sisters. He didn't follow of coz coz he was working. There's keychain, tempeh goreng, tshirts and pouches. So thoughtful of her :)

Oh yes! We've bought our luggage! 2 luggage actually. Haha. 2 in 1 deal at $45. Where else? Mustafa Center. I told you we'll get it there didn't I? And now I wished we will be departing tomorrow itself! Haha. Nah. In 2 months. "Be patient Aimi!" Lol.

Both of us are really crazy. Spent each waking moment talking/dicussing/planning about HKG! And even for our next trip in August! our 5th year anniversary together! Oh my gawd. We're really going nuts for holiday! Planning to go either Indo, Thai or Vietnam or maybe even Hawaii (seriously!!). Wah! Duit kahwin pikir simpan dulu hooooi! Haha.

I honestly don't mind if you ask me. He's got his travel benefits and aku tumpang gembira ajer! He said there will be a free travel voucher to anywhere most prolly nearing year end. Hahaha. Gila lah! We joked, maybe by the time we got married there'll be no place left to go. But...Where got!? What about Europe! Haha. All of Europe! Huge you know! :p

I thank God for this wonderful man, for the rezeki, for everything in short. This is the year of Rabbits! We're gonna rule! Hahah. Percaya sangat lah dengan benda karut ni ;p For fun je la kan kadang2. I'll definitely stick around this job for awhile. Maybe until after marriage, I soo can't freaking wait :)

I'm Dangerously In Love...
My Happiest Moments Weren't Complete If You Weren't By My Side
I See Myself Having Your Child
I See Myself Being Your Wife
And I See My Whole Future In Your Eyes

PS: Go watch Ghost Must Be Crazy...WORTH EVERY CENT! Most Hilarious movie! I laugh till my sides hurt! :D