Upset & Dissapointed to the MAXIMUM!

I had pimple breakout, menses cramp (1st day), i was late, i didn't wear my pantyhose and to top it all today, I had an unfairly judgement for my appraisal.

Just because I didn't remember alot of facts (which I honestly told them), I was thus compared to someone who was not even on the same property. I wanna curse and farking swear in their faces, why am I being judged and compared to someone who didn't handled things that I did? Why is it that when I do good and great things, there is nobody that noticed? On days that I'm down, I was being judge so unfairly. It's fine by me. Tuhan tu Maha Adil. It's only coming 3 months, u don't expect me to get 10 compliments right?! Even at my previous place it took it what, 5 months to get noticed? Those that are currently in the same department took them 1 whole year! So what? I have 1 year background and nominated for Receptionist of The Year they THINK i can do magic is it? Yes I can do wonders, yes i can shine despite the rest and this particular thing is a whole new thing. Yes I know the map like the back of my hand and NO i don't normally make recommendation for high end food because I came from a god damn 4 star hotel! And which is why I didn't get through the finals!

I just hate it. First you said wrongly that i don't smile which i ALWAYS do at the counter. Yes, I may not always smile or say coming into the room and outburst a HI HELLO AMCM?? No. That's not me. I'm not an introvert. I just don't talk much. Secondly, punctuality. I am always on time but its not always on time that you do the briefing. And even tho i may appear that i'm lost in my world and caring about how i sweat so much just to do the annoying french up twist, i paid total attention. Unlike some people that doesn't even digest a thing. Haiz...I'm so utterly upset about this. This has affected me so much the whole day. It just made me wish one thing......

Park Hotel. Imiss doing Front Office there. I miss all of it, the idiotic people, the politics, my FOM, the carefreeness despite the low paying salary that is.

This is the 2nd time in my career i've been dissapointed. Perhaps it came from me myself. Perhaps NOT (which i think it is the case). Well, like i said, if it doesn't kill you - it only made you STRONGER!

I know there's alot of things that contributed to this 1 more month extended probation. I know maybe to some it doesn't mean anything, but to me it means so many. Yeah, what is one more month right? It's not just the month, it's what that have been said. If I have a choice, I wouldn't wanna work there too. Maybe it's true too, the drive for me is wrong. I'm init for the money. Well, who isn't?! SIGH! We'll see how this month goes. I need to have my holiday first, then I'll think about all this. In the meantime, let me wallow in self pity ;'(

aNd You CAN'T keeP a Good GirL doWN =-~{*}

Whatssup Facebookers??? OOppss. Wrong Channel ;p Let's try again...

Whatssup BloGGers!! I'mmmm back ;-) New job is doing very well. So well that I've received 2 hongbaos! Yeah.. 1 from the company ($8) and the other from Lancome Salon 360 ($20) and already twice I've gotten a $10 tip in a week! Alhamdullilah. There's random dinner invites to Waku Ghin, Tanjong Beach Resort, Big Easy, 1 Altitude.. but so far I've went to NONE! Yes, not one. Stupid? I dunno, you decide. All food are not halal and served alchohol and cocktails and stuffs. As ALL Muslims know, we can't drink or get drunk. Hilang kalimah dalam badan. Wallahualam.
Salon 360 has a facial/hair treatment/hair cut, shampoo & blow dry invitation for all of us. Wondering when to go. Gonna get the hair treatment. Make full use lah! ;p

Roster so far has been so nice to me but it affected our dating schedule. These few weeks I only get to see him once. And he's gonna layover at Osaka, Japan on Valentine's Day which so happens to be my off day. SIGH! I'm not too bothered about VDay. We can't celebrate anyway (it's actually the celebration of the downfall on Islam - read your Roman history) so I'm just gonna try to get a gerl date for some kite flying at Marina Barrage ;)
BUT BUT the day before we have planned for (2nd time in 2 weeks) a cycling cum picnic with the rest of the vocal peeps at Pulau Ubin. Gonna sit atop the Viewing Tower at Chek Jawa again. That's the closest that I can get to Koh Lanta, Krabi. The scenic - breatheless and romantic.
Can't freaking wait! After which we plan to head to Botak's Favourites..YUMMEH!!

Sidetracking abit...I'm trying to get back in shape again. Doing alternate days cardio and aerobics, daily crunches and sit ups and I think I might do jumping-jacks on my lazy days. I'm eating as pr normal what I always eat but keeping in mind, no soft drinks (coke at TDR is soooo tempting!) and no rice after 7. Heh...trying to make this a habit. Wanted to go jogging but too lazy to step out of the house. Wanted to sign up for California Fitness all access gym and dance classes but also couldn't find the time to go down to the shop. I know I know..EXCUSES! Haha. But why should I spend on transport when I can do it at the comfort of home?? Heheh ;p

Reason is simple, I need to save money for the wedding and I need to downsize before Nov next year! I know its still long but who says I can't start early?!

Talking about Nov, he plan to go Egypt. Before that we had surveyed for Barclona, Spain and Rome, Italy. It'll be on the Royal Carribean. Haha. Can you believe it? We estimated the prices for flight stopovers (if any) and accomodation and the itinerary and it's all for next year. Haha! Tak sabar kapeeee kite ni! Not looking forward to the wedding but the honeymoon. Haha. Oh yes, Aifa is 5 weeks pregnant! Wuhoo. Got hitched in mid Dec and BOOM! Congrats to her :) I can't wait for my turn too :D

Alright enough of me right now. The fiance apparently has 4 sector today but he didn't call me in between flights like he promised! Hmph! I'm gonna pull a long face later, bluek!

Ps: Won't pursue Airline industry anymore :) I'm very happy and comfortable (I knew it all along) at the Hospitality Industry. I'd rather keep people happy and hospitable rather than looking over the flight safety of people :) That has always been my passion.

Pps: Please shut you filthy trap ranting about your just-graduated cabin crew hooplah on your every farking fb status. F U! You wanna talk shit about it once in awhile I won't mind BUT PLEASE, not every one of it ok!!??

OK BYE!

{*}-= I'm ForEver Yours, Faithfully =-{*}

Shahid accompanied me to the doctor's today. He even stayed at home with me and we used the computer to continue our HKG planning :) Sweetness this man of mine. His reward? Mum cooked him his favourite, sambal telur. He ESP liked mum's sambal telur. *haha*

He brought me souvenirs that his mum bought for me from Bandung over their family's holiday with his sisters. He didn't follow of coz coz he was working. There's keychain, tempeh goreng, tshirts and pouches. So thoughtful of her :)

Oh yes! We've bought our luggage! 2 luggage actually. Haha. 2 in 1 deal at $45. Where else? Mustafa Center. I told you we'll get it there didn't I? And now I wished we will be departing tomorrow itself! Haha. Nah. In 2 months. "Be patient Aimi!" Lol.

Both of us are really crazy. Spent each waking moment talking/dicussing/planning about HKG! And even for our next trip in August! our 5th year anniversary together! Oh my gawd. We're really going nuts for holiday! Planning to go either Indo, Thai or Vietnam or maybe even Hawaii (seriously!!). Wah! Duit kahwin pikir simpan dulu hooooi! Haha.

I honestly don't mind if you ask me. He's got his travel benefits and aku tumpang gembira ajer! He said there will be a free travel voucher to anywhere most prolly nearing year end. Hahaha. Gila lah! We joked, maybe by the time we got married there'll be no place left to go. But...Where got!? What about Europe! Haha. All of Europe! Huge you know! :p

I thank God for this wonderful man, for the rezeki, for everything in short. This is the year of Rabbits! We're gonna rule! Hahah. Percaya sangat lah dengan benda karut ni ;p For fun je la kan kadang2. I'll definitely stick around this job for awhile. Maybe until after marriage, I soo can't freaking wait :)

I'm Dangerously In Love...
My Happiest Moments Weren't Complete If You Weren't By My Side
I See Myself Having Your Child
I See Myself Being Your Wife
And I See My Whole Future In Your Eyes

PS: Go watch Ghost Must Be Crazy...WORTH EVERY CENT! Most Hilarious movie! I laugh till my sides hurt! :D

{*}=- I still wish you the best with a Forget You -={*}

I just feel like blogging today! *haha* And this MIGHT be my last entry. Awww, so sad. Last entry for the year lah DOLMATS!

Today Shahid and I went to Mustafa Centre. We went to eat at an indian restaurant before hunting for stuffs. I got to eat my ABM masalah butter rice. That's what it's called anyway. SEDAP GILERRR!! Spicy and nice. Butter rice is just Briyani rice lah what else. But the main star was chicken masalah. Fuyooo~!! With papadum. Yum2!

After our late brunch, we headed in the mall to get himself some undergarments. Ouh I know what he's gonna wear underneath. Haha. Anw, harga sama macam kat shopping mall lain. Ku pikirkan bole dapat murah for these branded names. Haha. Cheappo siah ;p We also surveyed prices for luggages to use for our HKG trip. Got 2 in 1 luggages, even 3 in 1! Cheap and useful. 1 for me, 1 for him and 1 for our shopping stuffs. LOL! We then proceeded to meet up with the beautiful people, Dalilah, Sakina and Izat at Zam Zam. Before meeting them, we had a tense moment sitting at Marble Slab at Iluma. I don't really know why I got worked up suddenly. Maybe because I had to follow him to the other side of Little India where we "explored" in search of the bus stop. I told him, dari jalan balik cari bus stop puas hati kite jalan kaki pergi Bugis. Dekat je. Manusia ni degil, kata hujan lah. Grrrr. But it was a good walkabout the place ;)

Anyways... sat from Zam Zam to Coffee Bean at Raffles Hospital and back to Coffee Bean but at Iluma. *haha* We dirty talked alot! Main topic was Tiger Show. *whahahaha* Should not go into detail. The day was well spent with the lovely people :) Let's make the chalet or holiday happen alright people! A reunion - no excuses!!

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Hotel is already booked, YIPEEE!! Flight is on standby but definitely confirmed, YIPPEEE!! Now all that's left is buy luggage and apply leave. I wanted to apply now but like so damn early lor! *haha* And I've asked Izzat if I could borrow his DSLR so that I could snap Snap SNAP non stop there!

Shahid won't stop talking to me about it everyday! On one of our quite moments he would randomly turn to me smiling and say, Hong Kong tak sabarnye! Haha. Cuteness. He really can;t wait coz he had wanted to materialise the trip to Disneyland for so long. USA tak dapat pergi pon takperlah, HKG pun HKG lah. We also have a little notepad planning our trip, finances, prices of the different tours and attractions and also the transport system. Where to get off and all. Basically all the works of planning a holiday. Hehe. I can't blardy wait!!

Can't wait for ZooooM Hong Kong! :) I want us to be a globe trotter, first it was Thailand then Malaysia then Indonesia and now Hong Kong. Planning for Australia and Amsterdam next :p Thanks to the courtesy of Jetstar's staff priviliges.

Apart from that I'm happy to say we have begin the planning of the Big Day. Yesterday at Harbour Front, before our movie Meet the Parent: Little Fockers, we went to the bank to open our joint account. Something we should have actually done 2 - 3 months ago! With God's will and our should-be strict regime of saving money and not tapping any cent at all, we will get married SOONer. Maybe only. Heh. InsyaAllah. Not good being like this very long. We've been at it for more than 4 years and I wish to end this "bawak anak dara orang keluar". Kalau da kahwin aku da tak payah dgr mak aku memekak and kasi risau biler aku asik kluar ngn si dia ajer. Haha.

{*}=- When There Is Love, Life Begins... -={*}

Been 2 days since I started my new work. New environment, new styles and people's character to adapt to, but same 'ol same 'ol passion :) And dare I say, I am happy...so far! *haha*

I'm at the stage of "let's just sit back and observe". Knowing everyone's character, pet peeves, who to avoid and who to befriend, ALL OVER AGAIN! Yes...all over again, about a lil after one year from my previous workplace. And I pray that it will not be as BAD!

Won't go into details about work coz I really hate talking about work. Just know that...I'm totally psyched about it!! :))

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I've had a well rested 2 and a half weeks of rest. Phew! It wasn't enough. It's always not enough! *haha* Sat at home did some chores, went out to meet fiance, went for a getaway somewhere near SIN, and did BIG TIME SHOPPING. I had 2k at hand the week after I resigned and left with 200 now! CRAZY OR WHAT!! Did hair rebonding, online shopping, went for holiday, paid my debts, bought sis presents, paid for her dye-ing of hair, blanja family to seafood feast at ECP, watch Walking With Dinosaurs and most of all go here and there take TAXI!! *haha* My 2 weeks was well spent! Didn't regret any of it and that I'm left dry for the next 2 months. *sigh* Lucky my meals and night transport are provided.

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Last weekend, fiance's best friend got hitched. He spent the whole day being his best man. Awww...how sweet :) And I became the assistant to the best man cum photographer. Cool uh ~! *haha* How I wished it had been us up on that wedding dias. *sigh* MONEY! MOOLAHS! CIEN! DUIT! Urm...apa languange lagi aku nak translate. Hmm. With this new job and WAY better pay, hopefully both of us will save enough (more than enough actually) for us to get married in 2 years time. I know ALOT LOT couple will want this date. Confirm plus chop plus guarantee!! It's not 12.12.12 like he previously suggested. I want it to be on the 20.12.2012. We will need to register super early to get the tok kadi!

Nice right? I know ;) And guess what? His other best friend wanted that same date. Sheesh. Lets get solemnized together I told the girlfriend. *haha* Susah ah nant kawan2 dorg tak tau sape nye hari nikah nak pergi. He thought maybe it will be a good idea to combined two weddings together at a hotel. Tak nak ah! 4 different families and very crowded and stealing my limelight! *haha*

So thats the story of my life for now. I need to remind myself everyday before work to start it with a Bismillah and end with Alhamdullilah. Praying that this job will be permanent for now and insyaALLAH the rezeki that I bring in every month are money blessed with hard work because of HIM.

Ok, I'm gonna side track abit. I can't wait for this coming March!! Why? Ok, lemme start from the top *putting my index finger on the top of my head* :) He had submitted his name for a survey trip to any of Jetstar Asia's destination. It was a ballot and luckily for him, he was selected! He would only have to board the flight and assess the flight attendants and whatnots. On top of that it's free travel two way and $200 cash allowance!! Wuhoo~!! So...we have requested to go HKG! And guess what, Shahid already planned what to do (Disneyland, Ocean Park, Madam Tussaurds), how much to bring, where to get halal food and which hotel we're gonna stay. *hahaha* Excited nmpk, excited nmpk, excited nmpk! LOL! Lemme tell you a secret, I CAN'T FREAKING WAIT TOO!! Sooo FUXITED! LOL!

:))

*-=[ Online Window Shopping ]=-*

All too familiar? That's what I did today :) I went online window shopping on Facebook for dresses, Ikea for TV cabinet, Apple products and Court's for a DVD player while recuperating at home from my flu.

Found a white Lack TV bench and Sony DVD player at affordable prices. I've yet to search for TV prices. I don't need a big one, just a suitable size for my viewing pleasure. All for my comfort in my Romantic Red room. Loved it the most. All with the help of my dearest fiance. These are some of the pics. Not much and it happens to be my engagement that I've been preparing. I've always wanted to do a room makeover but never did. So that occasion was a perfect excuse :)

Ignore the items. heh.

Yes it was blue; like a boy's room. WAS my fav colour :)

There's actually an empty space here below the window. That's where I intend to put my TV; just infront of my bed :)

This is the wall sticker pasted by yours truly and the night lamp to give a touch of romantic feel at night. Well actually it's for my timidness to sleep in the dark recently :p

Nice right!? Wanted to put pictures at the middle but I thought it would be overated. Like my wedding room or something. Haha! Concept was black and red. Romantic ain't it :)

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What I did for the rest of the day? I watched on youtube Little Mermaid, the first movie, Little Mermaid 2 but stopped halfway coz it was quite boring and Cinderella 3, the best!!

Oh how I'd love watching fairytales when I was younger. The innocent feeling of wanting to wear long big bobbing gowns, tiaras, glass slipper and the ever famous fantasy of having to kiss and marry a Prince. These Princesses found their Princes easily don't you think? It's not easy to have a happily ever after either.

That is why I love watching Disney's fairtale movies. It keeps me believing I am that Princess, the damsel in distress (aren't we all?) and hoping to marry my Prince Charming and always wanting a happily ever after.

I have found my Prince. After a few trys that is. You don't always get lucky at the first one. Hopefully and I always pray that he is my happy ending. Not only in this world but also in the hereafter. Let me quote one of his messages:

"Even if one day God decide to take you back first, i won't be disheartened coz I will surely meet you again in Heaven and be together with you for eternity."

Isn't that the sweetest thing you will ever hear from your love one?InsyaAllah Amin.

Anyhooo, before I get all teary eyed... I'm planning to bring my family to a spread for good food at East Coast Park Hawker Centre. Initially I planned for Straights Kitchen but its WAYYY too pricey even for my liking. What with the many family members I have. As much as I want to, maybe next time. Heh.

Planning to also buy myself and if I have enough, for Dear too, the new iPod Touch 4g! I loved it so much. Instantly fell in love with all the features, gaming, facetime and vedio recording! Basically almost the same like a regular iPhone but without the call features! Best! Dind't get anything for his birthday, so this might be it I think. We can facetime wherever we want! Oh wait, no, when there's WiFi. Heh. Wee~! Can't wait to get my hands on them!

It'll be another week before I leave my current workplace and join a better one. The button jacket has already gave way. Its a sign for a new uniform! Haha. Nah, I'm just getting fatter. Hahha! But seriously, I can't wait to say Bye bye PHCQ and HELLO prorated bonus!! ;) And then Hello to a short holiday at Bintan hopefully and Hello MBS :)

Can't wait for it! And then everything will fall right into place. Ya Allah, terima kasih atas rezeki yang telah kamu limpahkan kepada hambaMu ini dan keluarga ku. InsyaALLAH ini berpanjangan tetapi ku tahu, segala adalah sementara di dunia ini. Sentiasa tanamkan dalam hatiku kesyukuran terhadapMu atas semua ini. Kamulah Maha Pemberi dan Maha Kaya. Amin.

Ok, watch this vid below. It just launced 2 months ago and I can't wait to get my hands on this baby! Watch and you'll know. Disclaimer: for non Apple users like iPhone only, like myself :) Heh.

Officially and legally unavailable :) *hehe*

Love you Muhammad Shahid!