{*}=- I still wish you the best with a Forget You -={*}

I just feel like blogging today! *haha* And this MIGHT be my last entry. Awww, so sad. Last entry for the year lah DOLMATS!

Today Shahid and I went to Mustafa Centre. We went to eat at an indian restaurant before hunting for stuffs. I got to eat my ABM masalah butter rice. That's what it's called anyway. SEDAP GILERRR!! Spicy and nice. Butter rice is just Briyani rice lah what else. But the main star was chicken masalah. Fuyooo~!! With papadum. Yum2!

After our late brunch, we headed in the mall to get himself some undergarments. Ouh I know what he's gonna wear underneath. Haha. Anw, harga sama macam kat shopping mall lain. Ku pikirkan bole dapat murah for these branded names. Haha. Cheappo siah ;p We also surveyed prices for luggages to use for our HKG trip. Got 2 in 1 luggages, even 3 in 1! Cheap and useful. 1 for me, 1 for him and 1 for our shopping stuffs. LOL! We then proceeded to meet up with the beautiful people, Dalilah, Sakina and Izat at Zam Zam. Before meeting them, we had a tense moment sitting at Marble Slab at Iluma. I don't really know why I got worked up suddenly. Maybe because I had to follow him to the other side of Little India where we "explored" in search of the bus stop. I told him, dari jalan balik cari bus stop puas hati kite jalan kaki pergi Bugis. Dekat je. Manusia ni degil, kata hujan lah. Grrrr. But it was a good walkabout the place ;)

Anyways... sat from Zam Zam to Coffee Bean at Raffles Hospital and back to Coffee Bean but at Iluma. *haha* We dirty talked alot! Main topic was Tiger Show. *whahahaha* Should not go into detail. The day was well spent with the lovely people :) Let's make the chalet or holiday happen alright people! A reunion - no excuses!!

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Hotel is already booked, YIPEEE!! Flight is on standby but definitely confirmed, YIPPEEE!! Now all that's left is buy luggage and apply leave. I wanted to apply now but like so damn early lor! *haha* And I've asked Izzat if I could borrow his DSLR so that I could snap Snap SNAP non stop there!

Shahid won't stop talking to me about it everyday! On one of our quite moments he would randomly turn to me smiling and say, Hong Kong tak sabarnye! Haha. Cuteness. He really can;t wait coz he had wanted to materialise the trip to Disneyland for so long. USA tak dapat pergi pon takperlah, HKG pun HKG lah. We also have a little notepad planning our trip, finances, prices of the different tours and attractions and also the transport system. Where to get off and all. Basically all the works of planning a holiday. Hehe. I can't blardy wait!!

Can't wait for ZooooM Hong Kong! :) I want us to be a globe trotter, first it was Thailand then Malaysia then Indonesia and now Hong Kong. Planning for Australia and Amsterdam next :p Thanks to the courtesy of Jetstar's staff priviliges.

Apart from that I'm happy to say we have begin the planning of the Big Day. Yesterday at Harbour Front, before our movie Meet the Parent: Little Fockers, we went to the bank to open our joint account. Something we should have actually done 2 - 3 months ago! With God's will and our should-be strict regime of saving money and not tapping any cent at all, we will get married SOONer. Maybe only. Heh. InsyaAllah. Not good being like this very long. We've been at it for more than 4 years and I wish to end this "bawak anak dara orang keluar". Kalau da kahwin aku da tak payah dgr mak aku memekak and kasi risau biler aku asik kluar ngn si dia ajer. Haha.

{*}=- When There Is Love, Life Begins... -={*}

Been 2 days since I started my new work. New environment, new styles and people's character to adapt to, but same 'ol same 'ol passion :) And dare I say, I am happy...so far! *haha*

I'm at the stage of "let's just sit back and observe". Knowing everyone's character, pet peeves, who to avoid and who to befriend, ALL OVER AGAIN! Yes...all over again, about a lil after one year from my previous workplace. And I pray that it will not be as BAD!

Won't go into details about work coz I really hate talking about work. Just know that...I'm totally psyched about it!! :))

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I've had a well rested 2 and a half weeks of rest. Phew! It wasn't enough. It's always not enough! *haha* Sat at home did some chores, went out to meet fiance, went for a getaway somewhere near SIN, and did BIG TIME SHOPPING. I had 2k at hand the week after I resigned and left with 200 now! CRAZY OR WHAT!! Did hair rebonding, online shopping, went for holiday, paid my debts, bought sis presents, paid for her dye-ing of hair, blanja family to seafood feast at ECP, watch Walking With Dinosaurs and most of all go here and there take TAXI!! *haha* My 2 weeks was well spent! Didn't regret any of it and that I'm left dry for the next 2 months. *sigh* Lucky my meals and night transport are provided.

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Last weekend, fiance's best friend got hitched. He spent the whole day being his best man. Awww...how sweet :) And I became the assistant to the best man cum photographer. Cool uh ~! *haha* How I wished it had been us up on that wedding dias. *sigh* MONEY! MOOLAHS! CIEN! DUIT! Urm...apa languange lagi aku nak translate. Hmm. With this new job and WAY better pay, hopefully both of us will save enough (more than enough actually) for us to get married in 2 years time. I know ALOT LOT couple will want this date. Confirm plus chop plus guarantee!! It's not 12.12.12 like he previously suggested. I want it to be on the 20.12.2012. We will need to register super early to get the tok kadi!

Nice right? I know ;) And guess what? His other best friend wanted that same date. Sheesh. Lets get solemnized together I told the girlfriend. *haha* Susah ah nant kawan2 dorg tak tau sape nye hari nikah nak pergi. He thought maybe it will be a good idea to combined two weddings together at a hotel. Tak nak ah! 4 different families and very crowded and stealing my limelight! *haha*

So thats the story of my life for now. I need to remind myself everyday before work to start it with a Bismillah and end with Alhamdullilah. Praying that this job will be permanent for now and insyaALLAH the rezeki that I bring in every month are money blessed with hard work because of HIM.

Ok, I'm gonna side track abit. I can't wait for this coming March!! Why? Ok, lemme start from the top *putting my index finger on the top of my head* :) He had submitted his name for a survey trip to any of Jetstar Asia's destination. It was a ballot and luckily for him, he was selected! He would only have to board the flight and assess the flight attendants and whatnots. On top of that it's free travel two way and $200 cash allowance!! Wuhoo~!! So...we have requested to go HKG! And guess what, Shahid already planned what to do (Disneyland, Ocean Park, Madam Tussaurds), how much to bring, where to get halal food and which hotel we're gonna stay. *hahaha* Excited nmpk, excited nmpk, excited nmpk! LOL! Lemme tell you a secret, I CAN'T FREAKING WAIT TOO!! Sooo FUXITED! LOL!

:))

*-=[ Online Window Shopping ]=-*

All too familiar? That's what I did today :) I went online window shopping on Facebook for dresses, Ikea for TV cabinet, Apple products and Court's for a DVD player while recuperating at home from my flu.

Found a white Lack TV bench and Sony DVD player at affordable prices. I've yet to search for TV prices. I don't need a big one, just a suitable size for my viewing pleasure. All for my comfort in my Romantic Red room. Loved it the most. All with the help of my dearest fiance. These are some of the pics. Not much and it happens to be my engagement that I've been preparing. I've always wanted to do a room makeover but never did. So that occasion was a perfect excuse :)

Ignore the items. heh.

Yes it was blue; like a boy's room. WAS my fav colour :)

There's actually an empty space here below the window. That's where I intend to put my TV; just infront of my bed :)

This is the wall sticker pasted by yours truly and the night lamp to give a touch of romantic feel at night. Well actually it's for my timidness to sleep in the dark recently :p

Nice right!? Wanted to put pictures at the middle but I thought it would be overated. Like my wedding room or something. Haha! Concept was black and red. Romantic ain't it :)

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What I did for the rest of the day? I watched on youtube Little Mermaid, the first movie, Little Mermaid 2 but stopped halfway coz it was quite boring and Cinderella 3, the best!!

Oh how I'd love watching fairytales when I was younger. The innocent feeling of wanting to wear long big bobbing gowns, tiaras, glass slipper and the ever famous fantasy of having to kiss and marry a Prince. These Princesses found their Princes easily don't you think? It's not easy to have a happily ever after either.

That is why I love watching Disney's fairtale movies. It keeps me believing I am that Princess, the damsel in distress (aren't we all?) and hoping to marry my Prince Charming and always wanting a happily ever after.

I have found my Prince. After a few trys that is. You don't always get lucky at the first one. Hopefully and I always pray that he is my happy ending. Not only in this world but also in the hereafter. Let me quote one of his messages:

"Even if one day God decide to take you back first, i won't be disheartened coz I will surely meet you again in Heaven and be together with you for eternity."

Isn't that the sweetest thing you will ever hear from your love one?InsyaAllah Amin.

Anyhooo, before I get all teary eyed... I'm planning to bring my family to a spread for good food at East Coast Park Hawker Centre. Initially I planned for Straights Kitchen but its WAYYY too pricey even for my liking. What with the many family members I have. As much as I want to, maybe next time. Heh.

Planning to also buy myself and if I have enough, for Dear too, the new iPod Touch 4g! I loved it so much. Instantly fell in love with all the features, gaming, facetime and vedio recording! Basically almost the same like a regular iPhone but without the call features! Best! Dind't get anything for his birthday, so this might be it I think. We can facetime wherever we want! Oh wait, no, when there's WiFi. Heh. Wee~! Can't wait to get my hands on them!

It'll be another week before I leave my current workplace and join a better one. The button jacket has already gave way. Its a sign for a new uniform! Haha. Nah, I'm just getting fatter. Hahha! But seriously, I can't wait to say Bye bye PHCQ and HELLO prorated bonus!! ;) And then Hello to a short holiday at Bintan hopefully and Hello MBS :)

Can't wait for it! And then everything will fall right into place. Ya Allah, terima kasih atas rezeki yang telah kamu limpahkan kepada hambaMu ini dan keluarga ku. InsyaALLAH ini berpanjangan tetapi ku tahu, segala adalah sementara di dunia ini. Sentiasa tanamkan dalam hatiku kesyukuran terhadapMu atas semua ini. Kamulah Maha Pemberi dan Maha Kaya. Amin.

Ok, watch this vid below. It just launced 2 months ago and I can't wait to get my hands on this baby! Watch and you'll know. Disclaimer: for non Apple users like iPhone only, like myself :) Heh.

Officially and legally unavailable :) *hehe*

Love you Muhammad Shahid!

What Could Have Been...

I know, i brought it upon myself; punctuality, "nervousness", unfinished written test and so on..
They actually gave us a review for our performances and I disagree with most of it.
What the heck.

I even wished that I didn't get to go finals.

And my wish came true...

So dissapointed in myself. What to do. God was not on my side. Maybe HE has other plans for me. HE had actually presented a good opportunity but I let it blow. All by myself. Sigh. Whats done is done. I had prepared myself for the worst. I KNOW I won't get thru to finals. Heh..just following my gut.

Goodbye Auckland....I will see you for my holidays then ;) and goodbye Elle beg :(

I'm really thankful for my supportive FOM. He was with me thru the interview at the Preliminary round and today, for the results. What mattered most that he believed that this girl, who has only been in the industry for coming 11months now and only 8 months then (when he selected me), to be able to represent the company. That was a great honour. Thank you Mr Lim. But sadly I wish to tender after getting my bonus. I wish to go for the airline industry. I wish to pursue my real passion/dream. Hopefully all will go smoothly. I can't wait for the year to end and go for the next recruitment.

On to other things, dear BF has already gotten our ring. Ooops, MY ring. People tlak about not getting engage, and that's a waste of $. Yes, it's a waste, but thats the tradition that bind two hearts and prepare them for that journey. Its the relation in which two families will be brought together. Its not nice to stay 'friends'. That's what the adult called it anyways. Its to let people know, you're taken, you're to be married with someone and it means something to everyone! So just get engage, for the sake of it.

My status will change end of this month and I'm happy that I can't freaking wait for it! :) and in 2 weeks i'll turn 23. Wow! And I thought i was gonna turn 24! Oh yes, and on 101010, what a special date, my ex secondary sch friend will get married. Who would have thought she'll go first. Hakz.

Well, marriage is money. No money don't marry. You'll get yourself in deeper shit. For me, let the things flow, and insyaAllah, all will fall into place when God permits it.

I Dreamed A Dream

In the morning I was late. Not late for my interview. But late to prepare myself 15-30 mins before it starts. Didn't have time to compose myself and prepare and was breathless and sweating and.... *sigh* created a bad impression. *double sigh*

I wish I could turn back time. I wished I had finished everything on that written test. I left most of it blank and I didn't tell Boss coz it'll dissapoint him that the person he has appointed actually did not meet his expectations. That high expectations he has of me.

Honestly I was taken aback to the questions. I can't believe on competition level I actually am incompetent while I know very well at the tip of my fingers, that I'm more capable of doing great things at work; WOW the guests. But still I did badly this morning :( I'm more dissapointed in myself that anybody else.

Its a good lesson, a good experience,a good highlight/credentials for me to put on my resume. It's ok. Even if I don't get through the finals, I'll have that experience with me.

Intial plan was to fail as I wanted to go for airline interviews, wait for bonus and quickly pack and go. But after today I feel that I should have done so much. I was blessed with an opportunity. Only 10 months old! Talking about my work duration, I hope they take into consideration that I was very VERY new to the industry, the company, BUT that is not to be used as an EXCUSE!

There is just one question in the interview I totally would have got spot on and perfected it. They asked "Tell me more about Raffles Hotel, Old Lady Of the East" I was like who the hell or what the hell was that?? I searched the net on a lappy and I hated it. They should have provided a mouse but yet again that shouldn't be an excuse. *SIGH* I didn't find my answer twice even after they went back to the question. On the 2nd time when they gave me a hint, I gave a very wrong answer. That aside, I really hope all my other questions was answered in a manner I was always trained. And also I pray that mywritten test plays a very small percentage in the overall marking. I really sucked. The kids in the Biz Centre was so much of a distraction and I didn't run through the paper first and look at the questions before answering. Yes yes I know, excuses.

My only concern now, I pray that I had made a good impression in their minds to ward off all the other "silly" mistakes I made. Just my luck to get 2 lady judges and only a male judge. I know, I go in and go out, I greeted, I smiled and told them to have a nice day.

Results will be announced at dinner at Charcoal on the 1st of October. Its my birthday month. Please God, bring me good news for my birthday :( Amin. InsyaAllah.

Now all I can do is Tawakal je lah dan sabar menanti. If I don't get thru the finals, I'll just accept it with an open heart. Hopefully I'm strong enough.

That's Alright becoz I like The Way It Hurts

Back again peeps! :) Went to Genting Highlands last week. I had a week of annual leave. And believe it or not, I have another week left :) Gerek pe. I will claim it in time to come..very soon actually ;p

I had alotta fun there! 4d3n to be exact. We booked thru 5 Star Tours. I've uploaded the album on Facebook. That is if you have added me on Facebook. Heh. These are some previews...

Are we in London?? Heh, mimpi lah!

We took this Space Shoot. The view atop was breathtaking!

Our hotel covered in clouds...coolness; literally! :)

Both of us didn't wanna go home becoz we were enjoying ourselves and our holiday. Was so lazy to go back to work the following week which was last Monday. Hakz! The day before Boyfriend, Aifa, Hussein, Amsyar and I went karaokeing at Grandlink. And I couldn't wake up for the morning shift! My work starts at 7 and I woke up 5 mins to 7 becoz the phone decided to switch off in the middle of the night becoz of low batt!! Lucky my colleagues were all understanding and luckily on a PH morning, there's no extra charge for taxi. Hah! Bf worked morning shift too and both of us were dead tired at the end of the day coz after work both of us met up with Hussein to watch the live telecast and fireworks for NDP 2010 at the SG Flyer! This year was boring sad to say.

Anyway today is the 2nd day of Ramadhan year 1431. Hopefully this year will be a more meaningful year before this. I won't be buying any costume as I've already bought my engagement suit! Wee hoo~! Sis also bought similar costume in a different colour. Of coz mine has to be white ;) I can't wait for October!

Next, Bf and I are planning our next holiday. Where to next? Bali? or Phuket? Heh. We're always going on holidays. Both of us have found a travel companion in each other. I love travelling, what more with the person who enjoys the same passion. InsyaALLAH it will continue even after we have kids of our own :)

For now, lets focus first on our 'ibadah' in this holy month. I'm starting my prayers again after neglecting for so long. But God was always not forgotten. Hopefully, with God's will it will continue even after this month has passed. Wudhuk is our natural beauty ailment :) And I hope to fully complete my fast but that will be impossible when my period comes BUT i will still fast as normal. The 'ganjaran' is the same as a normal person's fasting. Oh yes, this year I wanna try to pay my Zakat myself at the mosques. But they say you can do online, at AXS/SAM, and thru hotline. I see when the time comes. This year I'll probably pay on behalf of my family too. If they have done it before I do then that's fine. I will still pay for them, insyaAllah, and I'll have to wait for my pay day tho. Heh.

Hopefully this year raya I can get an off day. Coz I'll only be going out Raya-ing on the first day. The rest of the days are waiting for pple to come to my house and also to friend's house and not to forget our beloved teacher Mr Baron.

Aite, enuff rambling. I need to iron my clothes now. And waiting for Bf to reach home (SG). I have a break fast date tommorow with him. And Sunday with the peeps and him, maybe I'll suggest JB but we'll see. Morning shift the rest of the week for me. It's good coz I can have my sahur b4 work but I'll miss Subuh :( Haiz...need to do something about it. Okok, I'm almost done...heh...nitez people :) Happy Fasting and Selamat Menjalankan Ibadah Puasa!

*Croak Croak*

That is an actual sound of a frog. Which how I'm sounding right now. I can sing a Newboyz song and ace it ok! haha. That's how nasal I am. It has been two days mc.It was worst on my first day when I went to work. The guests were squinting and trying very VERY hard to understand me and I was trying my VERY best to speak NORMALLY. It was damn hard. Lucky no fever. Fever was on Tuesday and it lasted 1 whole day, thankfully. And unfortunately my mum threw all my medicine. sigh.

But, all's well now. Tommorow I can go back to work as per normal - with my nasal voice :)

Anyway, next week 020810, will be the start of my holiday to Genting for 4d3n :)) In conjuction with our 4 years anniversary. Mcm da kahwin *haha* He happen to have a week's leave and i take my 1 week leave too. Just for the fun of it ;p Gonna enjoy ourselves together and find our engagement stuffs, if there is any. I already bought some of his items. Dunno if I shud get more coz we're suppose to be on a budget! hahkz :)

I can't wait for it... 030806 :)

Love you always,
aimi

Ghost Time

I'm at home blogging while he's out with his gay friends. Hate it when he used that term.

Him: Gay = happy ok?

Siaow. No matter what do not I repeat DO NOT use that term around me. Especially when it comes from your mouth. Anyways, I declared to the whole world that I wanna get back in shape. I want her body. Only hers. Nice boobs, round but, washboard stomach, curvy sexy body and beautiful maked -up eyes...Sigh... Dunno who I'm talking about? It's actually non other that bootylicious Beyonce! Girls like me would die to have her body! I don't wanna just be thin, i wanna be curvy and sexy ;) hehehe!

Ok enough about body, it will be endless talking about that. Oh yes..UPDATES! Pertaining my contest this Friday, its postponed. Freaking hell, postpone till so far away, September! Instead of the preliminary round, I have to attend Revenue Management Course. What the fark is that?!! Haha. Guess I'll know when I get there. Its at Concorde btw. 9 to 1pm then i have to proceed back to my workplace (KEPALA OTAK AH!) and end shift at 5pm. Might as well send me home after that right?? Still have to come back work siah.. $&$#&^654*)&@!!! Sabar je. Lucky its until 5 and not 11pm! Gah! If I have to go to work die siah. LOL! Lucky my FOM very nice :)

I was mid shift today and FOM had training with some of us of how to escort guests up to their room. Nervous wreck siah. 10 people sit there and watch you demo. All your movements and sayings are paid attention to. haha. But funny lah we all. Know each other, work with each other everyday still malu.

PAUSE!!! Why am I talking about work WHY?? It's so unlike me siah. The competition ah got me started. Damn!! LOL!

Work aside, Dear said Wan and Khai wanna tag along to Genting. Wuhoo~!! Triple date/holiday with the peeps that I went to Krabi with! Yeehaw~! But they need to get consent from their gfs Shidah and Juli first to confirm. Another good times to look forward to. Hopefully Azhar and Nadia will be able to go along too. Yippeee, the more the merrier. Ni lah orang2 yang kite bleh harap2 kan di masa hendak BERLIBUR :) Sampai ketua lah kite asik holiday sesama dengan anak2. InsyaAllah amin :)

Ok peeps, the night is not getting any younger, and I freaking need sleep. Especially after last night getting freaked out by a small person that walked along my house corridor at 5 in the morning. Fark lah. I don't disturb you, you don't disturb me can?! Gggrrr!

Kiss Kiss,
@imi

Yeah Baby Tonight The DJ Got Us FallinG In LoVe Again ~

*happy mode* I'm happy coz earlier today I got to meet my boyfriend after few days of no dating and work work work... *sigh* Which is actually a good thing; we save money, for our future that is ;)

We decided to watch Despicable Me. Soooo good! I love animation and a good heartwarming funny like hell movie!! Loved it but should have watched it in 3D tho. Wanted to use the GV Birthday voucher but the movie wasn't applicable. (-_-)'' But we still watched it regardless and it was well worth every penny. Thanks to my handsome man, Shahid :) Went to Marina Square where we got a jackpot card to redeem vouchers or something. And guess what we got? 25% off SG Flyer :)) Had to use it before end of August. Talking about August, that brings me to another thing that I need to mention...

On the THIRD of August marks our FOUR years of courtship. Wuhooo~! And I will still keep counting tho its pointless coz it will be FOREVER :) The first week of Aug is his leave so I'm taking off too. I have 13 days of annual leave not used yet. HAHA. What a good employee I am! On the day itself we'll be heading over to Jurong Bird Park, the most anticipated place for us as we've never been there despite covering all of SG's attractions. lol! On the 4th I 've asked the peeps about holidaying together at MYS. We'll be departing for Genting for 3d2n, WUHOO~!! Eating, shopping for October stuffs, going to their theme parks...I CAN'T FREAKING WAIT! :))

Sidetracking, this coming Friday is my first round of Receptionist Of the Year contest @ Royal Plaza on Scotts. *nervous!!* Nora, previous year ROTY participant will tag along to prepare and actually soothe me for the best thing to happen to me. Well, I need to prepare by Thursday if not, bye bye Auckland in January :( Wish me all the best people!!

Love Love,
Aimi

And The Reason Is...

No. Not you. LOL!
This entry is a pick up for the last. Wanna know why?
Coz I am officially running for the title Receptionist Of The Year!
Thanks to my dearest FOM CT Lim.

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I was so stressed that I had to do Operator on my A shift today. Y stress? Coz I hate, HATE, being desk bound and a boring place to be at on a relaxing working day at that. Not many departures and arrivals are so-so. The norm. The tension was actually rising at the back office. And I wanna interact with people. I die of boredom just waiting to pick up calls! LOL!

The time for makan came, and the opportunity to go out to the front desk presented itself when my supervisor claim hours. Sooo...eventually I went out *wide smile* alongside with Ijah and Muhammad and Siva. 3 gerek people, iLOIKE! :) Becoz it wasn't busy, we laugh, talked loudly, joked and gossip like nobody's business. Soon, the FOM came out and whatelse, joke with us also lah. And that's where he officially confirm to take me as one of the participants running for ROTY this year, as approved by my General Manager also :) YIPPIE! I was at the same time, drop dead worried and also so FUXITED!

He asked me to go to his office and that's where he wrote my name in that participation form. They're paying $380 just for me to run this competition. The bars raised, definitely, so many times higher for me. Expectations too! I'm so afraid i don't reach or meet that expectations. There are so many "what ifs" when i should be asking "what should i do". My mum supports me all the way, Shahid too. Their support means the world to me. And Nora (last year's participant) will gladly help me thru and my FOM will be my mentor, some sort like Jackie Chan in Karate Kid *grins* I really need all the help and guidance I can. But someone said I need to learn this on my own and whatever I prepare at work I have to face it alone. How can?!

It's only coming to 8 months, i repeat ONLY EIGHT months that I've been in the hotel line and with the company and I'm already recognised and this means something. I wondered why me out of the rest? Some have been with the company for more than a year and more experienced than me yet I was still chosen. Like FOM said, 'you know how to talk'. Ok, whatever it is, its good and its getting me somewhere. I get to attain the WSQ course, gain experience, raise my standards and if I win, I'll fly to NZL next January to compete internationally. Cool right!

I had dreamt of this and now that its come true I will make the best of it. Winner will also win $1000, get a trophy, go New Zealand and a sponsorship for WSQ Diploma in Tourism. And I really want that, especially the sponsorship! I've already invested (and WASTED) $4K at Kaplan which I will not continue. Can't wait for the study loan to finish this December. yahoo~!! I can finally start saving for our wedding :) Firstly cant wait for our engagement 171010, it'll be the start of something beautiful *love, love*

The reason I was talking about at the beginning was about why all these good things are coming my way. If I had gone for the cabin crew interviews or applied for other jobs like tour agents and desk bound job, I won't be able to have all these coming at me. This wonderful opportunity of a lifetime. I finally realize why GOD did not let me get Jestar, Silkair or Emirates etc2, because HE wanted to give me something even more better and appreciate and make use of what I still have and will do with it. A reason only HE knows at that point of time and wanted me to have it when the time is right. Like a friend used to mention, does not mean what you thought is best for you, is what you will get. Rezeki di tangan Allah and semua yang terjadi adalah kebaikan untuk hambaNya di masa DIA kehendaki.

Therefore, patience is really a VIRTUE :)

Pray that I will get thru all this and make it to the finals, all the way to the international level, AMIN :)

Normally...I won't talk about work. But today, lets be abnormal and make an exception.

Few days ago, my FOM (Front Office Manager) was at the front desk with me and my colleague that was on the same shift that day. We were discussing and joking about stuffs and he asked "ARDE this year who wanna go?" I was thinking, "ARDE (Assosiation of Rooms Division Executives Singapore)? we all went for it already what"

And he said, "No, who wanna run for Receptionist of the Year?"

Remember I did say in one of my entries that I wanted to actually be one of them? *haha* Guess what my FOM said, "Aimi, I will put you. I won't change my mind unless there will someone better fitting the position. Until then, you will be the one ok?"

I showed the "are you sure?!" face but in my heart I was elated!! Within a year (not even a year actually) I can achieve alot of things. I believe I AM in the right line and I AM where my capabilities are showed and recognised :) I did ask why I might be running for it and he simply said, "you know how to talk." I was like WHAT? Talk what? Talk how? *haha* Very funny but yet super happy :)) Thanks to my favourite FOM :) He's the best FOM ever! Bought for us all OPI nail polish and bring us sight seeing, book chalet, do barbeque, treat us makan,n blanja the peeps ciggarettes and even go clubbing with us! He's fun :) He will be the reason I stay (longer). *Hehe*

Our renovated hotel in Orchard, the one that has Swensen's outdoors, will be opening soon and I'm so freaking envious of their new uniform. ITS SO NICE YOU CAN WEAR IT FOR NORMAL OUTING! Really, I was so jealous, the ladies uniform is so beautiful.And the best part, it's all BLACK! *sigh* Why didn't I opt for GPO?! *hmm* It's ok, I wouldn't want a lady boss as a FOM. I'm a follower of my current FOM. Like I said, he's the reason I stay :)

Met Darling yesterday along with Izat, Amsyar and Hussien to watch Alan and Apple sing for the Singing Chef @ the Esplanade. Shahid and I planned our roster so that I can accomodate my off day so that it falls on his off day. He'll start flying already. If I can't be happy for him, who will. He knows I will always be jealous and at the end of the day, it's just a thing called WORK. Oh yes, talk about flying, I had prepared my interview speech for Silkair. Tiada usaha, tiada maknanye. So I made a best of the best acception letter for me to memorise to rock their socks off! *haha* Awaiting their next intake in 5 months time :D

Yes people, the Great Singapore Sale has started and I already bought my first item, a pair of heels at Charles and Keith. I wanna buy some flats at a new shop at Marina Square. The shop looks like Rubi. *haha* So KPO ah these shops. Anyways, I had been doing afternoon shift for the longest time that will continue till next week. Everyone wants to work morning and take PH and leave. I have 4 pending PH and 13 days of leave. *sigh* When to take? *pondering* Mum's Birthday and Shahid's Birthday coming up. Maybe another short getaway again? *Hehe*

That's all the updates for now folks, Happy Long Weekend :)

If I were A Boy with A mind of A Woman

Let me tell you a story about a very good friend I know.

Seriously sometimes she think you dont care at all. Publicly. A girl needs to be flaunted to her guy's friends.

You know like in Facebook. Its a media where everyone can see the on goings even if it disgust them or makes them uncomfortable with the public dispaly of affection. Its not like the guy does not have internet on his mobile. He does and he views them frequently but where does he go to? Comment on his friend's fotos and wall posts or links. Where does that leave her? She's been posting too, sometimes well most of the times was about him. And what did he do? Abso-f**king-lutely nothing. He just knows its there. Its good that he will reply privately thru smses about the posts but sometimes a girl needs them to be publicly displayed.

She gets jealous and she wished that her guy was like one of her friends. They post on each other's wall on what they miss about each other, giving the encouragement towards each other, openly saying two of the 3 letter words. Actually, she always did that, even go to as far as tagging him on a vedio that she dedicated to him. All of it which was unreciprocated. Sad isn't it? I pity her. I really pity her. It wasn't always about the quarrels that sometimes they fight about like the small things in life. Sometimes the smallest thing to him means the whole world to her.

Like two days ago, she was jokingly saying that she didn't wanna help him. Oh common! Which selfish biatch wouldn't wanna help her guy right. Its only lending him a document to purchase something that he needs. But he decided to took it the wrong way and said that he won't trouble her and that he will ask help from his dad. Hello, in the first place if she didn't wanna help she would have tell him off at the beginning. She got really mad and wouldn't speak to him. She drank the ribena he bought her only becoz she felt that she shouldn't waste the water.

She is still not talking to him. For so many reasons that she's angry about. Sometimes she wished that he thinks more like a woman than a jerk. You don't see her profile picture that has him in it. Coz she's not proud of it. She's too immersed in herself, so proud and egoistic. She wished she was single. Really coz to her since the beginning of time, man are jerks. They just don't understand or put themselves in our shoes. Its us that needs to satisfy their needs, well, what about our needs? Its just a simple act. She's not asking for a stalk of rose for the special occasion, or want him to buy a box of chocolates randomly just to fill her love for chocolates, or buy her a nice jewellery just so she has something of him on her body, nope, she's not materialistic. She just needs him to openly display the love.

I cry just telling her story. It's just too depressing.

She told me something today. As days go by, she just can't stand him anymore. He's just so insensitive. The 3 letter word feels like nothing. All the times that they get intimate, she just gets bored easily, coz its the same thing they do that just makes it not special anymore over time. They don't hold hands anymore like they used to; he used to never let go for even one sec until she said to him that she is uncomfortable. That's how much holding hands they used to do. Not anymore. They don't hug anymore even. The kissing is nice but it just lost it's touch over time. She love the warm hugs but never got them anymore. That is why the teddy that he gave her, she never hugged him again.

She also said that she didn't wanted to get tied down, 'fraid of what marriage will do to them. Like how it did to her parents, her grandparents, her great grandmother, her aunts...Are all men that jerks'? She wished she could get back to the time of just knowing and being friends with him without any strings attached. It was the best time to just talk about each other, being friendly, getting to know each other better, doing fun stuffs and the secret of liking each other that was thrilling...its was really the best times of her life, but being attached and in a relationship just spoils it all. The heart aches and quarrels and whatever it is bad came with it (being in a relationship).

Sigh..I hope things get better for her. I hope not becoz of this post, he will change. Coz it's not anticipated anymore. Coz he already knows. Where's the surprise of it? Nowhere.

Aite peeps, I've been sweating just writing this long winded entry. Its so damn hot these days. And I don't blame the weather. Dear God, please forgive our sins. Amin.

Can't Wait for Next Week

To wow the socks off some people ;) Going for the interview for a certain job for a certain Airline :)) This ime around I WILL make them hire me. The first time I went for the interview I gave them a totally wrong answer for me to get thru to the next round. But then, I applied not long ago. I wonder if I have to wait after 6months to apply again. Haiyaaa sigh!

Anyways, I can't wait for a short getaway from work next week. Gonna have lotsa fun :) Going swimming and going makan-ing and goin karaoke-ing and many more ;)) I hope to get my manes cut and rebonded too *hopefully*

Oh yes, just wanna share that I receive a Topaz Award with $100 along with it. *wuhoo~* So happy. Ouh, lemme explain to you the works of these awards. If you get 3 compliments in a month (ur name is mentioned in the feedback form from guests abot Employee that should get recognition), you get the Sapphire Award. 8 (i think) compliments you get Topaz Award with $100. 15 compliments will be Diamond Award with $300. And I'm happy and humbled to say I got both the Sapphire (for January) and Topaz (for March) and $150 in total. Wuhoo~!!! Can't wait to receive them next week on our monthly Staff Birthday celebration. I want to get Diamond next and become a Hotel Ambassador. Wee~!! If I'm still there that is. I can't believe I'm still at my current workplace for 7 months already. Time surely passed by!

Yeah, talk about air stewarding. I really had come to terms with him working for Jetstar before I can get the chance. Honestly, I still felt dissapointed and upset and totally unfair why he got it but maybe God has something else planned for me. Something better I hope :( Well, for now tawakal only. Not everyone get whatever they want even with prayers. A friend once mentioned, maybe there is something that God has kept you away from from getting what you want. Maybe what you think is good for you might be something bad afterall which you don't know yet.

Someday I will know. Today I want to just go with the flow. So whatever comes, I'll just decide when I receive it. :))

Have a good day people :)

I have said this before and I will say it again.


Once you make yourself appear to be someone of the annoyance, irritating, done something bad (hands/mouth etc), people will always remember you for the bad deeds you have done. Don't you know. Aww, that's a pity. Let's pity the fool people. People will never remember you for the good, if you have any that is.


Learn this lesson number 2 people! :)


Besides the most obvious irritation of all which this person has yet to re"butt", which is good of course. What's the use of pin pointing others when you yourself has not been garanteed Heaven or Hell in the afterlife? Like I mentioned in the previous post, don't ever interfere with other people's lives. It's messy. Very. Messy.


Ok enough ranting about irritations. Wanna talk about MY LIFE. Coz this is MY blog. MY say. 6months to that fateful day. I wonder how it will go. It's gonna be real simple. Its just an engagement. I saw my friend's fotos. Its like her solemnization already and in fact its only an engagement! I dunno abt mine tho. Keeping it sweet and as to our "kemampuan". I'd rather save much for the big day. Or our HONEYMOON! LOL! I'm yabering so much about the future! Hakz! Know why? Cuz I can't wait. Won't keep all these a secret anymore lah coz it's gonna happen sooner or later and besides, alot of people already know :) Can't wait to " spend my lifetime loving you ~~ "


Need to get a good/better paying job. I can't wait for my study loan to finish. Kindda regretted it, but its too little too late! It ends end of the year afterwhich I can't start saving for our nuptials. Going for an interview tomorrow. Hope everything goes well. Delta was just such an ass. I mean, the interview was! I'm not gonna be racist nor judgemental, but that Indian lady was sooo putar-belit-ing her words! So much for saying, "thats what a perfect candidate would say". Perfect candidate my FOOT!


Oh yes, Father apparently came out of the blue and said that his friend who is currently working in Burj Al Arab has a job opening for me. FOR REAL?? I'm really not sure. After all these years of false promises and literally sweet nothings, I don't trust his words no more. Even Shahid said it's too good to be true. Yeah, my sentiments exactly. What with the visa that needs to be done months in advance, sorting our accomodation, getting prepared like learning their Language. My Arab sucks I tell you. It's gonna be hard either way. So, I'm letting it pass me by. BUT BUT BUT, Dear Boyfriend said that he can make my dreams come true only after he finish his bond with Jetstar which will take 2 years. And then only after we can decide thoroughly whether it will be a wise move to migrate to Dubai, which I soooo badly pray hard we will :))


Right now, I pray that Life will go smoothly as it is and I surrender everything to Him whatever he has in store for me, Shahid and Family. Amin ya rabbala'lamin


On a high note, I need to cut my manes. Seriously! It's getting outta control. After the last haircut, I'm never going to other hairdresser besides the one at my neighbourhood! Jean Yip my foot! HAH! Anws, wanted to get a rebond and shorter do next week when I get my paycheck but I have other plans. I mean WE :)) have other plans. Short getaway here we come :))


Lotsa Optimism,
aimi

Ohh Bugger Off

When you don't know the person personally, what they do for a living, what they intend to do for the rest of their lives or what they have done, please mind your own beeswax.

Please also take care of your own nest.

Don't be judgemental nor assuming.. You're just making a fool of yourself.

To not make a fool out of yourselves, please keep the comments to yourselves with a capital Y.

Some people know what they are doing or if it's right or wrong. Every thing has its flexibility, you just don't know it.

How many beings in this world knows what they're doing is wrong and still do it? And yes, that includes me. But who are you to know whether what you are doing is in actual fact right or wrong?

Have you heard about the story of a pious man going to hell and a hell bent man going to heaven just because of their intentions? All these only HE knows and only HE will judge. Who are you to interfere in HIS desicion or confirm it?

That is why most of us are empty vessels that made alot of noises.

Think about it. And I ain't only referring to you, it's also a lesson for me and the general public. No point in getting so worked up in a small matter. That's why we learn not to interfere with other people's lives; its messy.

Have a good day all, enjoy the weather - SubahanAllah.

In General..

Today might be the day I will start to love myself again. Put myself first again. And do whatever I want to again without having to consider that someone will be breathing down my neck. I really had wanted for a long long loooongest time to be able to do what I wish to do on my own time, my own pace and most importantly on my OFF day.

I wanna go shopping without a care that I need to save money for "Just In Case" days. Backups for people. I can just spend and not care about what the other party thinks, whether it suits me or not or whether the color is nice on me or not. Heck, from the beginning it was actually pointless to ask coz the other party will just say "this is ok" or "this is nice" and not "i love to see on you" or "you'll knock them dead." No. When I say I'm on the plus size, I freaking am on the plum size. Oh yes, appreciated "compliments" from unnecessary people i got from saying I'm fat and I'm short, which bloody hell, I'm not.

So as of now, I wanna save more money for my own gadgets, my own beauty stuffs, my desired shoes or accessories, i can get 'em as and when I want it. I can also save on food that is constantly consumed out of home. Sigh. That MUCH money is always spent on food. Grrrr... Time to watch EAT. Hakz! Sounds like an old kid programme from Kids Central. Anyways, I also don't need to wait for these items that I was hoping to get at one shot on a certain date and month.

The much needed SPACE is really very welcoming. Everyday since the past few years I've been wanting to go picnics on public holidays with my family like we always do, go cycling and swimming with my dearest Sister, go out and catch up with my old school mates and girlfriends. Honestly, I don't have a BFF. That's sad. Only occasionally we talk and that is thru this platform called FACEBOOK. Yeah. Once in awhile in MSN. I miss those single days. I really do.

Some people said that I've been getting physically abusive again, jealous, annoying, irritating and that some people is getting pissed off. That some people didn't say some of it but definitely it sounds that way. Jealous much? Oh hell yeah of course I am! But do I need to say it out loud? No. Coz I've already mentioned and EXPLAINED somemore so why must I say it out loud? Is it hard to ask to be heard?? You said I shouldn't have gone for the position when I had the chance when you gave me the green light some time ago. Know WHY i didn't go for it? Because I chose not to. Not to personally affect this "thing" we had called relationship. Its hard to explain but if you were in my position, I bet you know the feeling too well.

Oh well. Its done anyways. You got your DREAM occupation. I'm being annoying and sarcastic frankly speaking. Oh yes, I'm jealous. Happy now that I say it out loud? F**k you. You're just S-L-O-W.COM. Trying to threaten me with old habits that you wanna pick up again. i wasn't born yesterday a-Hole. Oh yes, I'm angry at you. I still will be. I meant what I said. I regretted. Some people can wait for my calls or sms like how they say in malay, "tunggu bagaikan buah tak jatuh" or whatever the fish it is. Who cares about my language anyway. And you said I'm a coward? Huh..I bet you thought I was. Wait till I lay down all of your weaknesses. I'm not saying I'm better, but with you saying that, it shows so much on how you see me as. I'm not a sad little girl anymore. I can stand on my own two feet.

Now that I got my own space and time, lets repent...

(Bila suka, semuanya indah, bila benci semuanya pudar. Bila panas, semuanya keluar mcm air, bila reda, semua kata2 tersangkut ditekak. Cakap tak sengaja lah, pasal tengah marah lah, bla bla bla la. Malas aku nak dengar. Ni kali pegang kata2 ku, tak ku hiraukan segala hubungan melalui handphone aku ni)

I knew for sure he had snagged the position to fly with Jetstar. What am I to say? Ask him to reject the job offer? Pffft.

I also knew from the very beginning he was hoping he will get it too. Who doesn't? stupid idiot will only reject a job to be a Cabin Crew. What upsets me was I did apply. A day earlier than him. But the next day that he sent his resume he got the call. Who wouldn't be frustrated??!!

Maybe it's just not my "rezeki". I accept it God, really I do. YOU don't know how much I've dreamt about being an air stewardess as long as I can remember. but then again, you're GOD, you knew I wanted this job eversince I was a little girl :'( The dissapoinment I've to endure all my life. Why didn't I go for it before I even met him?! Sigh. What to do? Life is not fair.

I take it in my stride. I wanna dream BIG too. If I can't fly then I really wanna migrate. Honest to GOD, I really wanna explore the world on my own if I get the chance. I wanna go Dubai, work in Burj Al Arab and live on Palm Island. Sigh.

I don't know what got me so worked up when I knew right from the beginning that he was gonna get the job. Maybe becoz he said to me, "why am I wasting my time with the Jetstar interview. I know what I want already (which was the position at Disney)." It hurts when I think back of what he said right before the interview. He asked for my blessings and he was afraid that he snatched my dream away. Bloody hell, he did. We quarrelled about how he had actually asked me to apply for budget airline coz he didn't want me applying for international airline becoz of the long distance bla bla bull crap shit bla bla.. Well Mister, thats not the reason. the reason is I already stated at the beginning of this para. The source of income can be found in so many places. Just admit that you too deep down inside wanna have the chance to travel. I don't mind. Go... I'm in no position to stop you. You need the money right to prepare for our wedding? Go...

Remember this, when I say I will go Dubai, I swear I will, even leaving you alone at the altar, I will. This is not a threat. This is my dream that you will never be able to take away from me.

Sunday 21 March 2010

*outdated post* Resorts World Sentosa :)

Since the other peeps didn't bother to reply my messages for a picnic today, BF and I decided to explore the wonderful but not yet done IR in Sentosa. It was quite refreshing to have to visit a new place in Singapore. Him and I have been to almost all (expect for Jurong Bird Park) the attractions available on the island and we're hungry for more. Hell, I won't expect to see more buildings in SG, we'll go Holidays in fact.

Went to visit 2 hotels (D, we didnt go to Hard Rock Hotel!!) Festive Hotel and Hotel Michael. The shooping alley towards the hotel recep is quite boring including Victoria's Secret. Nothing much, more or less like DFS. Very high end shopping spread. To my horror when I saw Festive Hotel's reception uniform! I'm soo glad I didn't work there. I felt like I was in Thailand's 3 star hotel! Urgh!

We both wanted to go in USS and retrieve some staff discounts from my ex colleagues but decided against it. The weather was not on our side and also we came there about 4pm! Left only 2hrs to enjoy the rides. Where got enough time!! *haha* so we thought that end of the month when we get our salary together we'll go there. Only the two of us :) Can't freaking wait! Will go on Off Peak Day which of course is a weekday duh!

Oh well, we bought popcorn and chocolates and proceeded to Palawan Beach for the Sand Sculptures thingy. Besar mane lah aku ingat ni sand castle dorg buat. Buang masa je. The wasn't even much hype. BF wanted to ride the chairlift but they weren't operating. Kesian impian tak tercapai. We've been on it before so it doesn't bother him that much that today we couldnt ride it.

Head home but dropped by Pizza Hut to buy some takeaways. Ate pizzas and baked beef balls at my blocks' void deck. Passed him some stuffs and formally introduced him to Sayang. *haha* He's still a pussy to cats. Oopps! LOL! Nvmd, he'll learn to get over it. For now, enjoys some of my pics. I've uploaded them on FB for friends view ONLY. Here's some...

A Day W/O Acknowledging You was The Day I MiSS u THIS much..

He's in camp undergoing his reservist in KINS. 3 weeks in-camp training. I only get to see him weekends. On weekdays? We hardly talk or sms cuz he's always outdoors and I'm on afternoon or night shift these few days. He's always in bed early. I miss him. I really really miss him. I'm maintaining the emotions believe me and so much have been dugged out from my "trashes" by that someone. I don't care. I'll just ignore all of it. I don't care to explain.

Anyways, I've been feeling pretty out of my skin lately. Don't know. Feeling of dont know, don't care and also heck care; work wise and life wise. I wanna get back to myself. I wanna start praying again. I've neglected alot of things. Dear Allah, please lift this lazy spirit off my soul. Let me once again be that girl who always meet you 5 times a day. Amin.

Prayers aren't enough, I need action. And I feel like quitting my job and find myself an office job - just for the weekends off. Its hard when he works office hours and I work 3 shifts. I don't wish to continue when I'm married even. I wanna be a FT Housewifey.

I love him. I have always, will and still loving him. He may have done certain things but it doesn't change how I look at him not on the outside, but the inside. I love him. He can make me smile, laugh and cry all at the same time. He can still give me butterflies and make me nervous for our every meeting. He can make me smile unconciously just by looking at his first appearance when we meet. We know what's our future gonna be and know's where we are in this big picture called Life. I pray that Allah will always bless our relationship and I pray that our parents will always give their never ending blessings.

I look forward to our first step to being officially binded and officially reserved just for each other. I miss you Muhammad Shahid Haron. I look forward to our date this Saturday. I look forward to talk to you on the phone at night on Friday.

Lastly, I hate shifts.

P/S: Looked up at Jetstar and they have a promo for Phuket return tix at a frigging $58/pax! WTF!? THAT FRIGGING CHEAP LARH! Sigh, too bad sale promo is till 15th March. If not, I'd already grab it, w/ or w/o the other peeps confirming their presence to Phuket with me and Dear. Some people just don't know how to BEDEK. Hmm. Learn from the expert - ME! It's ok. Will plan with Dila, Hussien and Amsyar again soon after they have settled in their new respective jobs. Planning for July. Hope it will materialize a.s.a.p.

P.P/S: I just had a new member in the house, I call her Sayang. Pls dun flood my tagboard. So damn unnecessary. And childish.

Got my Sony Ericsson Satio bordeaux! Wuhooo~ Parapapapa I'm loving it! :))

Anw, today will be my first night shift. Somewhat looking forward but at the same time quite scarry. Only these 3 nights I'll be with my "teacher". Then after will be only me alone plus a bellman of course.

Anyway, WHY can't people just not be sooo snoopy. I've lost my Nokia 5800 which has all the intimate most private messages that were exchange between me and Dee and now someone just can't stop snooping on my temporary handphone which i had used. Argh! Y didn't I delete them before passing it over?!! So f**king embarrassing! ;(

Thats it! I'm gonna lock my phone!

My New Love Interest ... LoVe lOvE

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(: Sony Ericsson Satio :)

I will DEFINITELY want RED colour!!

I know I'm such a confused kid :(

Skejap in a relationship, lepas tu single lepas tu ina relationship status alik. Honestly? I don't intend to change my stats but becoz I was soo angry I decided I actually WANTED to be single but seriously? After 4 years to be single? I'M MAD! I've grown to be like him, to be a part of him, to be dependable on him and have someone by my side all the while of our nearly 5 years courtship (since 2005!).

I know all our close friends and those around me who has my facebook will think that I'm the one at fault, acting all emotional, worked up, confused kid bla bla bla. Do you think I care? Not at all! Its my profile for goodness sake, I choose what I want it to appear. The moment my status are set on single, strangers come up and ask out of thin air whether I'm free. I'M NOT! Even when I want to be single or all alone, deep down, he's all that I need. Not want, but NEED.

People won't understand and really it's their problem and actually none of their concern. No matter what I won't tell them why we quarrel. Let them think I'm the bad person in this battle (which actually i was, but that's besides the point!), I don't care less what people think. I know, we'll patch things up sooner or later. Him and I both know. Like you never do or say stuffs irrationally!

On to a better note, can't wait to meet Love on Saturday for our one on one date. Been hanging with friends alot lately, I didn't even get to have my time with him alone :( sad right. Hakz! Gonna plan our morning till evening itinerary. Body works, maybe Bird park, and RWS, movie at Vivo or maybe ride the SG Flyer. Wee~! So many places to go! ouh ouh ouh, we need to go shopping too! I need to get my new HP!! :)) sO FUXITED! :)

ps: Company is having Dinner & Dance this coming Monday? Should I go? It's retro night. Can I come as Britney Spears Hit Me Baby One More Time??!! To me, THAT'S RETRO. Hahaha!

Anw, I love you Love :)

"kalau lelaki lain, da lama kena tinggalkan"

Its really true what he says. Like my previous ex, he did exactly that - he left me. But I'm really thankful that ex left me coz I wouldn't have met my current beau :)

He really is not like other man that I heard from my gal friends. Their boyfriends really don't care at one point in the relationship and they have EGOS. Real man egos.

And it's different with HIM. He's totally any girl dream guy. The downside, he's not romantic. He's not seriously but when he do random surprises, he'll surprise you upside down that your heart just melt to the floor.

His tears aren't crocodile tears. Its hard to break a man and when he does, he really loves you. It really breaks me inside, i can really be stone hearted but i just can't bear to see him cry. I read alot of horoscopes abt matches between Libran and Cancerian. We're not destined for each other. But who believe all those crap? We're muslims and God definitely have someone for everyone regardless of their horoscopes and whatnots. Its how you build it, how you maintained it, how you treasure it and how you want the relationship to be. It's all you and your other half. Not about becoz you have differences. Diffenrences are meant to be compromised and worked out. Love is about compromise too not just trust and honesty.

For us, we're two separate character. I'm hot headed, he's patient. I'm romantic, he isn't. I'm paranoid, he's a realist. All these are good coz he's a gentleman that gives in, which always make me cool down after our big tiff. I love random messages of love and he tries his best to make surprises. I get worked up easily and he always brings me back down to Earth. It's like he's my other hand for me to clap.

I hear my friends complain abt things that their boyfriend does. And here I am finding fault in him and always using his past against him. See! Paranoia! When I think back about it, I'm thankful he's not like their boyfriends. I really need to remind myself everytime we quarrel.

I love you Dee. Always and forever. You will always be treasured and you will always be that someone I want to be with all my life. No one and I repeat NO ONE is/was/were like you are how you meant to me right now and for life. I'm looking forward to our big day :)

iPhone 3GS

summary: this phone has all the things that a smartphone needs BUT its downside; the LOUSY camera. no flash, 3MP. its applications are the BOMB! :)

Nokia X6
summary: it has all the things i NEED! music phone, 5MP, Carl Zeiss optic w/ flash BUT applications are so-so. im a hardcore Nokia fan, trust me :)

conclusions? i think i already made up my mind. applications are of none importance. music is the MOST important and camera coz i cant afford a digicam at the moment. i don't need applications that much. i can always buy an iPod Touch much later. i made up my mind people :) once a nokia, always a NOKIA :)

Anyways people (who cares!), 8 more months exactly to the fateful day :) I'm soo excited! Lol. I hope we have enough to make it happen. He suggested the date so let's pray everything goes well aite :) I already have the things in mind on what I wanna exchange with him and how it will be like *hehe* But before the mildly big day, comes another excitement first! PHUKET! With the peeps :)) i really am looking forward to holidaying with Shahid, Dila, Hussien and hopefully Ams will follow. He might start school but we can always push forward the date for you my deaqr fren. Anything just so we can go holiday together. Save up peeps! Im OK with 5 PEOPLE IN A ROOM! *hehe* can't freaking wait :D