Can't Wait for Next Week

To wow the socks off some people ;) Going for the interview for a certain job for a certain Airline :)) This ime around I WILL make them hire me. The first time I went for the interview I gave them a totally wrong answer for me to get thru to the next round. But then, I applied not long ago. I wonder if I have to wait after 6months to apply again. Haiyaaa sigh!

Anyways, I can't wait for a short getaway from work next week. Gonna have lotsa fun :) Going swimming and going makan-ing and goin karaoke-ing and many more ;)) I hope to get my manes cut and rebonded too *hopefully*

Oh yes, just wanna share that I receive a Topaz Award with $100 along with it. *wuhoo~* So happy. Ouh, lemme explain to you the works of these awards. If you get 3 compliments in a month (ur name is mentioned in the feedback form from guests abot Employee that should get recognition), you get the Sapphire Award. 8 (i think) compliments you get Topaz Award with $100. 15 compliments will be Diamond Award with $300. And I'm happy and humbled to say I got both the Sapphire (for January) and Topaz (for March) and $150 in total. Wuhoo~!!! Can't wait to receive them next week on our monthly Staff Birthday celebration. I want to get Diamond next and become a Hotel Ambassador. Wee~!! If I'm still there that is. I can't believe I'm still at my current workplace for 7 months already. Time surely passed by!

Yeah, talk about air stewarding. I really had come to terms with him working for Jetstar before I can get the chance. Honestly, I still felt dissapointed and upset and totally unfair why he got it but maybe God has something else planned for me. Something better I hope :( Well, for now tawakal only. Not everyone get whatever they want even with prayers. A friend once mentioned, maybe there is something that God has kept you away from from getting what you want. Maybe what you think is good for you might be something bad afterall which you don't know yet.

Someday I will know. Today I want to just go with the flow. So whatever comes, I'll just decide when I receive it. :))

Have a good day people :)

I have said this before and I will say it again.


Once you make yourself appear to be someone of the annoyance, irritating, done something bad (hands/mouth etc), people will always remember you for the bad deeds you have done. Don't you know. Aww, that's a pity. Let's pity the fool people. People will never remember you for the good, if you have any that is.


Learn this lesson number 2 people! :)


Besides the most obvious irritation of all which this person has yet to re"butt", which is good of course. What's the use of pin pointing others when you yourself has not been garanteed Heaven or Hell in the afterlife? Like I mentioned in the previous post, don't ever interfere with other people's lives. It's messy. Very. Messy.


Ok enough ranting about irritations. Wanna talk about MY LIFE. Coz this is MY blog. MY say. 6months to that fateful day. I wonder how it will go. It's gonna be real simple. Its just an engagement. I saw my friend's fotos. Its like her solemnization already and in fact its only an engagement! I dunno abt mine tho. Keeping it sweet and as to our "kemampuan". I'd rather save much for the big day. Or our HONEYMOON! LOL! I'm yabering so much about the future! Hakz! Know why? Cuz I can't wait. Won't keep all these a secret anymore lah coz it's gonna happen sooner or later and besides, alot of people already know :) Can't wait to " spend my lifetime loving you ~~ "


Need to get a good/better paying job. I can't wait for my study loan to finish. Kindda regretted it, but its too little too late! It ends end of the year afterwhich I can't start saving for our nuptials. Going for an interview tomorrow. Hope everything goes well. Delta was just such an ass. I mean, the interview was! I'm not gonna be racist nor judgemental, but that Indian lady was sooo putar-belit-ing her words! So much for saying, "thats what a perfect candidate would say". Perfect candidate my FOOT!


Oh yes, Father apparently came out of the blue and said that his friend who is currently working in Burj Al Arab has a job opening for me. FOR REAL?? I'm really not sure. After all these years of false promises and literally sweet nothings, I don't trust his words no more. Even Shahid said it's too good to be true. Yeah, my sentiments exactly. What with the visa that needs to be done months in advance, sorting our accomodation, getting prepared like learning their Language. My Arab sucks I tell you. It's gonna be hard either way. So, I'm letting it pass me by. BUT BUT BUT, Dear Boyfriend said that he can make my dreams come true only after he finish his bond with Jetstar which will take 2 years. And then only after we can decide thoroughly whether it will be a wise move to migrate to Dubai, which I soooo badly pray hard we will :))


Right now, I pray that Life will go smoothly as it is and I surrender everything to Him whatever he has in store for me, Shahid and Family. Amin ya rabbala'lamin


On a high note, I need to cut my manes. Seriously! It's getting outta control. After the last haircut, I'm never going to other hairdresser besides the one at my neighbourhood! Jean Yip my foot! HAH! Anws, wanted to get a rebond and shorter do next week when I get my paycheck but I have other plans. I mean WE :)) have other plans. Short getaway here we come :))


Lotsa Optimism,
aimi

Ohh Bugger Off

When you don't know the person personally, what they do for a living, what they intend to do for the rest of their lives or what they have done, please mind your own beeswax.

Please also take care of your own nest.

Don't be judgemental nor assuming.. You're just making a fool of yourself.

To not make a fool out of yourselves, please keep the comments to yourselves with a capital Y.

Some people know what they are doing or if it's right or wrong. Every thing has its flexibility, you just don't know it.

How many beings in this world knows what they're doing is wrong and still do it? And yes, that includes me. But who are you to know whether what you are doing is in actual fact right or wrong?

Have you heard about the story of a pious man going to hell and a hell bent man going to heaven just because of their intentions? All these only HE knows and only HE will judge. Who are you to interfere in HIS desicion or confirm it?

That is why most of us are empty vessels that made alot of noises.

Think about it. And I ain't only referring to you, it's also a lesson for me and the general public. No point in getting so worked up in a small matter. That's why we learn not to interfere with other people's lives; its messy.

Have a good day all, enjoy the weather - SubahanAllah.

In General..

Today might be the day I will start to love myself again. Put myself first again. And do whatever I want to again without having to consider that someone will be breathing down my neck. I really had wanted for a long long loooongest time to be able to do what I wish to do on my own time, my own pace and most importantly on my OFF day.

I wanna go shopping without a care that I need to save money for "Just In Case" days. Backups for people. I can just spend and not care about what the other party thinks, whether it suits me or not or whether the color is nice on me or not. Heck, from the beginning it was actually pointless to ask coz the other party will just say "this is ok" or "this is nice" and not "i love to see on you" or "you'll knock them dead." No. When I say I'm on the plus size, I freaking am on the plum size. Oh yes, appreciated "compliments" from unnecessary people i got from saying I'm fat and I'm short, which bloody hell, I'm not.

So as of now, I wanna save more money for my own gadgets, my own beauty stuffs, my desired shoes or accessories, i can get 'em as and when I want it. I can also save on food that is constantly consumed out of home. Sigh. That MUCH money is always spent on food. Grrrr... Time to watch EAT. Hakz! Sounds like an old kid programme from Kids Central. Anyways, I also don't need to wait for these items that I was hoping to get at one shot on a certain date and month.

The much needed SPACE is really very welcoming. Everyday since the past few years I've been wanting to go picnics on public holidays with my family like we always do, go cycling and swimming with my dearest Sister, go out and catch up with my old school mates and girlfriends. Honestly, I don't have a BFF. That's sad. Only occasionally we talk and that is thru this platform called FACEBOOK. Yeah. Once in awhile in MSN. I miss those single days. I really do.

Some people said that I've been getting physically abusive again, jealous, annoying, irritating and that some people is getting pissed off. That some people didn't say some of it but definitely it sounds that way. Jealous much? Oh hell yeah of course I am! But do I need to say it out loud? No. Coz I've already mentioned and EXPLAINED somemore so why must I say it out loud? Is it hard to ask to be heard?? You said I shouldn't have gone for the position when I had the chance when you gave me the green light some time ago. Know WHY i didn't go for it? Because I chose not to. Not to personally affect this "thing" we had called relationship. Its hard to explain but if you were in my position, I bet you know the feeling too well.

Oh well. Its done anyways. You got your DREAM occupation. I'm being annoying and sarcastic frankly speaking. Oh yes, I'm jealous. Happy now that I say it out loud? F**k you. You're just S-L-O-W.COM. Trying to threaten me with old habits that you wanna pick up again. i wasn't born yesterday a-Hole. Oh yes, I'm angry at you. I still will be. I meant what I said. I regretted. Some people can wait for my calls or sms like how they say in malay, "tunggu bagaikan buah tak jatuh" or whatever the fish it is. Who cares about my language anyway. And you said I'm a coward? Huh..I bet you thought I was. Wait till I lay down all of your weaknesses. I'm not saying I'm better, but with you saying that, it shows so much on how you see me as. I'm not a sad little girl anymore. I can stand on my own two feet.

Now that I got my own space and time, lets repent...

(Bila suka, semuanya indah, bila benci semuanya pudar. Bila panas, semuanya keluar mcm air, bila reda, semua kata2 tersangkut ditekak. Cakap tak sengaja lah, pasal tengah marah lah, bla bla bla la. Malas aku nak dengar. Ni kali pegang kata2 ku, tak ku hiraukan segala hubungan melalui handphone aku ni)

I knew for sure he had snagged the position to fly with Jetstar. What am I to say? Ask him to reject the job offer? Pffft.

I also knew from the very beginning he was hoping he will get it too. Who doesn't? stupid idiot will only reject a job to be a Cabin Crew. What upsets me was I did apply. A day earlier than him. But the next day that he sent his resume he got the call. Who wouldn't be frustrated??!!

Maybe it's just not my "rezeki". I accept it God, really I do. YOU don't know how much I've dreamt about being an air stewardess as long as I can remember. but then again, you're GOD, you knew I wanted this job eversince I was a little girl :'( The dissapoinment I've to endure all my life. Why didn't I go for it before I even met him?! Sigh. What to do? Life is not fair.

I take it in my stride. I wanna dream BIG too. If I can't fly then I really wanna migrate. Honest to GOD, I really wanna explore the world on my own if I get the chance. I wanna go Dubai, work in Burj Al Arab and live on Palm Island. Sigh.

I don't know what got me so worked up when I knew right from the beginning that he was gonna get the job. Maybe becoz he said to me, "why am I wasting my time with the Jetstar interview. I know what I want already (which was the position at Disney)." It hurts when I think back of what he said right before the interview. He asked for my blessings and he was afraid that he snatched my dream away. Bloody hell, he did. We quarrelled about how he had actually asked me to apply for budget airline coz he didn't want me applying for international airline becoz of the long distance bla bla bull crap shit bla bla.. Well Mister, thats not the reason. the reason is I already stated at the beginning of this para. The source of income can be found in so many places. Just admit that you too deep down inside wanna have the chance to travel. I don't mind. Go... I'm in no position to stop you. You need the money right to prepare for our wedding? Go...

Remember this, when I say I will go Dubai, I swear I will, even leaving you alone at the altar, I will. This is not a threat. This is my dream that you will never be able to take away from me.