-= Feigning Innocence =-

[A], stop all the false pretenses. You're just lame and what a joke to take it personally. I should think you were the one who made up all the stories. Sorry, I just can't look at you again without thinking you're such a big hole (pain) in the a**...you get my drift..

Anyways, was kindda piss off today at work. After i finish work actually. I had MC for the last two days during Xmas. Mind you polyclinics doesn't open on PH. So I had to bear with the steep prices of private clinics which amounted to $75. Y the hell would I waste such $ on MC!? It just so happens it falls on Xmas day n Boxing Day. So what? I still paid for MC myself. The company doesn't cover (under probation) and I don't get paid either (unpaid leave). So I'm at the loosing end. You can monitor me or laugh at the passing remark for all I care, coz I'm the one that doesn't gain anything out of it. There! I said it..yes, I'm still not satisfied. But nevermind, they can monitor me all they want...

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Gosh, in less that two weeks, I will be in THAILAND! Yahoo~ my first ever flight (Jetstar). My dear BF was kind enough to let me sit by the window *shudders* I have a phobic for airplane take off and landing - the pressure thingy. Scared that my eardrums will burst. SERIOUSLY! Don't laugh ok. Everyone has their fears. I'm so fuxcited (f**king excited)!! Hotel bookings done, plane booking confirmed, tours over at Krabi still pending but on the process. Wee~!!

The day before my departure, I might be working afternoon, and guess what? Flight is at 8am and we need to be there by 6 plus. GAH! I won't sleep :) I'm already stressing on how many clothes to bring, which travel bag i wanna use (whether I shud buy) and MONEY!! Need to bring the correct (and extra) cash coz our arrival and departure will be from Phuket as the flight is cheaper. So on our last day, flight will be at night wich is 10pm I think, and we would have ample time to go window shopping or maybe just shopping (!! hehehe) around Phuket town. Wee~! Killing two birds with 1 stone by covering Phuket and Koh Lanta to be specific :)

Aite people, need to sort my finances *winx* :D

**=-_ Of Attitudes & Attributes _-=**

Its gonna be coming near to 2 months being here at my workplace. I enjoy the work, the environment, the benefits, the people...urm...the people? really? hmmm... ;)

See, I may be quiet to alot of 'em but actually I'm at my stage of observing and understanding my colleagues. You can also say that I'm listing out people I should be wary of, stay away from, get close with, potential good friends, so on and so forth.

I already have my labels. *grins* But not all I have fully digress. I'm still at an early stage to be really into hating or liking people.

I have a DM who has the attitudes and attributes of the worst people to work with (like [A]). Maybe my DM can give and take la. Just maybe only ok... I also have a senior who act, walk, talk, behave, everything la (almost!) like a good friend of mine. So, that one can click! *lol* Not giving names to protect the identity of each individual :)

Alhamdullilah, so far so good. I'm learning as I go and I do sometimes make careless mistakes, overlook some stuffs, etc2 but hey, I'm still learning right.

This week is my morning shift and I tell ya, I HATE morning shift!! but I LOVE going home early! *lol* I'm so used to the afternoon shift the past 3 weeks, I couldn't even sleep a wink on the day before my morning shift. *sigh* Took cab to avoid the train. Today I was PUNCTUAL, and guess what?! i took the TRAIN!! *lol* so proud of myself. Took a nap before I start work.

Lets recap, last monday my workplace had a ARDE (Assosiation of Rooms Division Executives Singapore) Dinner and Dance. It was very enjoyable and filling! It was held at Marina Mandarin. One of my colleague got nominated for the Receptionist of the Year. Cool right!? The winner will represent SG in Real Madrid, Spain in 2010! WOW! I wanna be in that nomination (or even the winner) next year! :) Oh yah, we had a dressing room for the peeps who will be going there but all of them went home, so I had the hotel room all to myself! Syiok siah! ;D

To My Dearest Dee,

Sorry for today, I was really pissed. Was so looking forward to collect it today only to find out that I came for nothing. Tommorow we go again ok. I'm sorry I "accidentally" hurt u physically *hehe* You know it was harmless ;p *sigh* i seriously can't face u directly wen im angry. it ALWAYS makes me wanna smile or laugh or just wanna lighten up! tats y i always look away wen im angry. i love u darling *muax* you light up my life :)

::-:: TrouBle ::-::

Dear fren,

why do you find trouble when it doesn't even bother you/your life in the first place. U're really asking for it. And I know and have that strongest gut feeling that it's no one else but you. Why go knock knocking on TROUBLE'S door? Why Why Why??? Do you find great pleasure in disturbing someone else's lives? Are you already bored of your own life that you need to give excitement to the other? I really sympathise with you. Well, it's your grave you're digging, not mine.

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Enough about other people's lives, lets talk about mine :)

Today was really fun and all even tho all of us met late and started late!

We went karaoke-ing at Grandlink. Cheap! I know I'm such a "katak bawah tempurong". I just knew that this place is cheap. Have always been to KBox. Actually once only, LOL!! But it was DAMN ex and really burning a hole in ur purse! Aite, ex VDG peeps, lets go there again. NO NO. Lets FREQUENT there. *hehe* I miss singing and performing doing shows at ITE and roadshows :(

I miss our Mr Baron, Mr Ernest..that studio we always go to every Saturday..the very location that my met my better half :)

All's changed now. Some joined the real world of the music industry to realize their dream of being an artist.

Talk about realizing your dream - Dear said he's gonna materialise his childhood dream of being I pilot :( .... don't get the sad face wrong. I totally am behind him all the way. He wants to retake his O's, take his A's and Deg. I don't know how I'll be able to cope with his being away and frequent flying and all the endless posibilities (and dugaan). I'll be ESTATIC to know that he can achieve his dreams. I can't realize mine coz unfortunately I've grown in size over the years. Really hard to go back to my small size. *hehe* (i wanted to be a stewardess). But I'm not going for it even if I were given the chance. I just wanna go Dubai (or maybe work there) that's all. Not hard to ask for right :) If Dear was flying there, in the future, i'll just pack and tag along ;)

p.s: the more we talk abt [A] the more I just seem to hate [A]. [A]'s such a hypocrite. Now I know. and now I know why in the first place I wasn't even drawn to [A]. *in soft tone - crescendoes* what the...F**K! :)