*-= DoN't LoOk BaCk In AnGeR - OaSiS =-*

WHY must this kindda thing happen (again)?

WHO is at fault?

WHAT lead to this thing to happen to us?

WHEN did it happen?

HOW did it happen?

Will it be good for you if I leave your life?

Will you be happy if I never entered your life?

All of these are questions in my mind that I tryna find the answers. If you won't let me in the picture, how am I to know the situation.

*Ku tahu kau tak ingin begini, tapi kau sanggup lakukannya. Betapa hatiku hancur musnah berderaian. Tidak seorang pun yang memahami hati dan perasaanku*

What is life without friendship and relationship... That I know...

But what is friendship and relationship without trust and understanding...?

******

Tomorrow I've planned to go out with Mua vocal peeps. Hope all of them can make it coz THE MORE THE MERRIER!! *haha* Then I was thinking of going swimming at Jurong on other days. Maybe with my family coz Mama isn't working. Then maybe hang out with Eera and her friends or our friends. With Liza also and her friends. Dunnoe go out when. *haha* As you can see I can go out and get along well with all my good friend's friend. I love to socialize and broaden my circle of friends mah *smiles* I'm not picky especially when it comes to friendship and relationship. Just going with the flow =)

I heard Yazzid is joining Sg Idol. Syafiqah, Saadah, Hussien, Shahid and Aidil is joining too. I think if Yazzid is gonna sing the Chicken Little song (his favourite song) complete with the dance, after 3 words he'll be asked to leave sehz! *hahaha* Like the Statue of Liberty guy on American Idol *haha* Americans are much more sporting, outgoing and daring to do the outrageous stuffs just to be on tv. THICK SKIN IS A MUST! *haha* Maybe I join Anugerah. Wanna give it a shot. Smaller basis rather than a bigger audience like Sg Idol.

Chatted with Firdaus Mansor in MSN just now. He's also joining Johari in NS this April. Masok Police sehz!! Haiz, da tak slalu nampak pat Tampines lg eh Fir. *haha* Wow~ I loike guys in uniform *evil grin*

To all the Chinese peeps, Happy Chinese New Year and to all non-Chinese peeps Happy Holiday!! Enjoy it to the fullest okz!! But remember to come back to school on Wednesday ok!

~Like my title says: Never Look Back In Anger~

Your positive traits:
You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully!You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out.You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person.

Your negative traits:
You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it.You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date...You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself.

Your ideal partner:
A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to.Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner.Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense.

Your dating style:
Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars.

Your seduction style:
Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own.Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough.Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love.

Tips for the future:
Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes.Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so.Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did.

Best color to attract mate:
Green

Best day for a date:
Wednesday

P.S: *hahaha* I have bothing to write today so just wanna share some stuffs about me, a Libran. And also today I did my presentation. Da bis balak. Yesterday couldnt sleep till the wee hours of the morning just practising and touching up the freaking project. Alast I did smoothly today and spit out whatever shit to make it convincing and alotta points *haha*

~WhAt If I LeAvE u OnE dAy...WiLL u B HaPPy ThEn?~

*-= Be WiThOuT YoU - MaRy J bLiJe =-*

Assalammualaikum. It's been a distressing week last week. Last Friday for some of my friends, who took ETP as their elective, they had a Bazaar at school. I thought of going for class but ended up helping out at their ice cream stall instead. It wasn't planned btw. Jun also help tho both of us are PTX students. *haha* It was a great experience for us Business students. Had alotta fun and learned how to FLIRT to get what we wanted. In this case Ana and Jun Jonet had too to get the ice cream finish. Good job guys! All your hard work paid off! *smiles* The ice cream was Lip Smacking Delicious! *haha* There was Bon Bon Rocher and Caramel. Topped with delish biscuits and wafer. All the pics are in my fotopages [Links]. Check out fer yerselves. Every picture tells a different story! *haha* Overall, all of us had alotta fun. The guys made quite a lot of profit. Thanks guys for sharing the profit between 7 (Amsyar, Abid, Ana, Huda, Eera, Jun and I) of us =) And btw, I so much so felt like digging that Biyol's eyeballs!! Oi! Matair pat sebelah pon curi2 tgk aku kappa!? Yuck!! Hate that guy -> noticed I've said this alotta times in my blog? *haha*

Saturday I had my vocal class as usual. That day I felt like wearing Gothic Evanescence style. *haha* All black! Came late coz had to fill my empty stomach before going for singing. Food is important ya noe! Well, I had coughs here and there so I didn't quite pull thru singing my practice song Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson. But seriously speaking, I really cannot carry that song well. All of the vocal peeps noe it but they just wouldn't want me to give up on it! I don't have a nice or good voice lah. Guys! I really cannot go high with my vocal range! Truthfully from what I've experienced from my past performance, I can do my very best when I'm on stage with a big crowd. It's because I don't focus to each individual, that's why I can give it my all, I mean really my all! But in vocal class which is in a small group, I just can't! Coz I can see each and every one of your faces and that really depress me! That's why in class I'm stubborn enuff not to face the audience, which is you guys, I'll just stare at the empty space outside the studio. Sickening right?! How shall I say it to you guys. Sigh...
And the thing about me using my throat really bothers me... It's ok now and then you guys tease me but that's just the way I sing. I can't just put my eyeballs infront of me so I can choreograph the way I sing. You get what I mean? It only bothers me a small % only ar. But rest assured I'm really trying my best and working on not to use my throat. Just that the choice of song doesn't need me to pull a long verse or "shout" in that case. How I wished I had a voice like Su or know-it-all like Aidil and Roy. Haizz... By then all the laughing that day conjured a small migraine in my head. But after dinner I was fine lah. *haha* It was Abid's birthday too that day (21/1). Da 18 anak mak yeh~! *kekeke*

On Sunday, I went out again this time with my BF. She wanted to do her project. It was only the two of us at first then Farah joined us AND then Anuar and Izad joined later. Changed and unplanned outing from what Liza and I wanted to do! Went to Tampines then National Library to search for books. I borrowed one btw, on love. A Malay novel. Almost finish reading. *haha* Fast reader I am huh. Later ate the infamous chicken rice at Tong Seng Restaurant opposite Seiyu. Oh it was also there that I bumped into Cliff (one of vocal mates). Asked him why he didn't came, he replied that he didn't know there was vocal class the day before. Leerrr...
All of them brought a camera. Apalagi, take lotsa pictures lah. Walked along Clark Quay, Chinatown then turned back to Esplanade for the guys to meet Farhan. Liza and I couldn't stay long coz our mums are getting on our nerves asking us to come home! *hahaha* Haiz. I'm not spared from the teasing between me and Farhan. There's really nothing going on between us, guys.

To the guys who think that the girls have to make the first move in this modern society, dream on! I'm still upholding the old tradition. Even if I was the last girl on Earth, I will NEVER make the first move to asking that guy out even tho he is also the last man on Earth! *hahaha* I think guys like that are egoistic. I don't mind making the first move in letting my intentions or feelings of the heart known to him but not a proposal or asking a guy out on a date! I'll ask indirectly lah but the guy must be the one to ask the girl out first right. Ain't that right girls?! We can't let these guys think that we are weak and desperate ya noe. *hahaha* Should play it cool and hard to get. Specifically to our crush. Take it or leave it guys...!
But then again, I don't quite mind asking a guy out myself. Because, if there's no other guy out there who would accompany you, in desperate measures for example to make jealous of another guy! That's considered a spare tire already lah. *hahaha!!* But I'm not that kinda gerl. I go out with anyone and everyone. Only two of us or with a group, doesn't matter. As long as I had fun with whoever I'm with, I'm happy =) (I sucked at debating isn't it!! *haha* Anybody wanna debate on this topic? Anyone??)

Talking about that, this CNY, all my friends who are non-Chinese are planning alotta outing and I can't wait for it but most of them are unconfirmed date!! HELP! But Monday my classmates are planning a picnic at Sentosa. Wee~! Best nye!! Then the outing I’m planning with my beloved BF is not confirmed also coz she too has camping with her family at Changi Beach. Then maybe I will confirm everything by Friday. Saturday pula got no vocal class. Just waiting for SOMEONE to ask me out. *hahaha* Mcm egoistik pula aku cakap gitu.

Freak!!! My project presentation is this Thursday!! Whatta hell, I finished half of it already lah... Just had to do final touch ups then I'm ready for my oral presentation. Masok report book dok! Eh? Sorry, ITE where got report book! *haha* Watever lah they call it...

Now some of my classmates are presenting theirs. Wah~ Amsyar's is damn good man! Got vedio! Kembang lah tu! *muahaha* Since yesterday I had been coming to class earlier. Just slowly changing my morning problem. *haha* Mum is always bugging me with her calls to make sure I really wake up! Irritating but Thanxx Mama! *muackz!*

~I'll Be ThErE 4 U AnYTiMe..BeLiEvE Mi~

*-= I LoVe YoU - CeLiNe DiOn =-*

I must be crazy now
Maybe I dream too much
But when I think of you
I long to feel your touch

To whisper in your ear
Words that are old as time
Words only you would hear
If only you were mine

I wish I could go back to the very first day I saw you
Should've made my move when you looked in my eyes
'Cause by now I know that you'd feel the way that I do
And I'd whisper these words as you'd lie here by my side

I love you, please say
You love me too, these three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together
Till the end of time

So today, I finally find the courage deep inside
Just to walk right up to your door
But my body can't move when I finally get to it
Just like a thousand times before

Then without a word he handed me this letter
Read I hope this finds the way into your heart, it said

I love you, please say
You love me too, these three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together
Till the end of time

Well maybe I, I need a little love yeah
And maybe I, I need a little care
And maybe I, maybe you, maybe you, maybe you
Oh you need somebody just to hold you
If you do, just reach out and I'll be there

I love you, please say
You love me too
Please say you love me too
Till the end of time
These three words
They could change our lives forever
And I promise you that we will always be together

Oh, I love you
Please say you love me too
Please please
Say you love me too
Till the end of time
My baby
Together, together, forever
Till the end of time
I love you
I will be your light
Shining bright
Shining through your eyes
My baby

I love Celine Dion and especially this song. It has a meaning for me. *muahaha* Missing someone right now.

Nothing mush to say really. *haha* Reminder for all of you DO NOT forget to watch American Idol!! I love Simon Cowell. I think he's the best critic person around but sometimes very mean. *haha* That's the way -> to be straightforward!!

The ETP students are having a Bazaar 2mrw at sch! Buy my favourite Gelato ice cream from them... *yummy~!*

~TaKe CaRe~

*-= ThAt'S mY gOaL - sHaYnE wArD =-*

As'kum peepz... Back again. Yesterday I didn't come to school coz I had to acco Mama to go for massage. She injured her foot on Monday while sending Mizi to school. She fell into the drain. Poor mummy... So yesterday she asked me to stay at home and help her with household chores and to the Nenek's house for massage at McPherson.

Alhamdulillah after the massage, her leg was much better. If not she couldn't walk properly. She hasn't gone to work for two days already.

Maybe today she start work. She will be working straight till end of January or February. I pity her. Hmm... I'm just glad to play my part at home.

Well yeah~ great to be at school coz I don't quite like sitting at home for long. Earlier today I had P.E. Fun ar after so long didn't exersice. Burn some calories! *wahaha* Ran two rounds then we played street soccer. My team won 5-3. I'm a good defender mah *bluek!* Then we went to eat at Cafe 2. Wa liaow I tell you it was so packed! I lost mood to eat. I just had a big cup of pepsi *damn thirsty!* and char kuay.

While waiting for BCM, I saw a familiar face. It was Suhana (from Anugerah 2005) performing at the Amphitheatre. She sang LeAnne Rimme's Can't Fight The Moonlight and my freaking song *berangan jer!!* Kelly Clarkson's Because Of You. Jun and I 'complimented' alot. *haha* You no need to know what we talked about la huh. Bcoz I don't quite fancy Suhana eversince the Anugerah.

~~~

I don't quite like the noisy school now. Actually crowded place to be specific. Haiz... Then later in the year the new batch of HNitec students will be joining. Hmm... All of the guys are staring at us ups and downs. Felt like digging their eyeballs.

Btw, about the above song... When I first heard it I thought the title was That's My EGO! *muahaha* What's with the title right?? But when I heard it again it was supposed to be GOAL not EGO! *haha* It's a very nice song ya know. Go hear it...

Jonet! Mamat pat depan mata pon tak nampak *wahaha!!* I board the bus with Fabian ya noe. Jealous tak, jealous tak?? *kekeke*

After this P.I.E!! Yahoo~!

~A Smile Is A Curve That Sets Everything Straight, So Smile Always Yeah!~

*-= KaU AuRaKu - AdAbAnD =-*

As'kum peeps! Wow... Had a boredz weekend. Had quite a laughter also actually because of some t.v programmes.

Saturday had my vocal class. I went there late as I had to take for Mama the financial slip from my sis at her house at Bedok Resevoir. After that I took bus to Eunos MRT. Earlier on I decided to go class with Hussien but he says he's going with Shahid and Aidil at 2.15pm. My goodness, it was way too early man! So I just passed it off ar.

But then went I was crossing at my old house (at the middle of the road btw), there was this lady beside me and pointed out to something at the back. Mind you, I was so engrossed with my head blasting discman on, I really didn't wanna be disturbed by anyone. So I turned and I saw Aidil in a cab asking me to hop in. Lailahaillallah. Nampak ajer ni mamat. I was wondering also how come he's late. Rupe2nye, the other two was still waiting for him coz he was late. And Aidil's voice was VERY nasal! *hahaha* Tau takpe eh Aidil. I always tease him in class. With that kinda voice nyanyi lagu Meraung sedap tu!! *wakaka* Kidding... Anw,to the 3 musketeers: Sorry I didn't talk to you guys in the train and to sch. I'm really not in the mood to talk when I'm listening to my discman. That's my habit lah *hehe*

When I saw my girlfriends, havoc man! *hahaha* Laughing and talking about everything. I let go of my craziness after being in a "funeral" mode in the train. *muahaha* Aisyah came after so long and the funny part was her laughter! She laughed liked a horse! You ppeps who have watched Mami Jarum, the actress Rita Rudaini's character laughed exactly like that! *haha*

We went for dinner at the nearest hawker centre. Had char kuaw teow! Yummy... Liza! When are we gonna eat at Lau Pa Sat again?? *haha* Went home with Su. In the train, we took lotsa crazy bitchy pics without caring the people looking at us. *haha*

I reached home ard 9+ and tot there were no intresting programmes to watch but after switching to all the channels, I saw Exists on t.v 2! My favourite! Ezad sang alotta old and new songs. Was mesmerised by him. Fuyoo~... Then after that was a movie called The Colour Purple. It was based on a novel. There was Oprah Whinfrey and Whoopi Goldberg. I tell you, the beginning till the end I couldn't stop crying. It was such a sad story *sob sob* And I had headache from it and it got worst with my step dad smoking in the house. My goodness! I really can't stand the smell. I got away from it to do unfinished laundry that mum asked to.

The next morning (Sunday), I just sat at home, waiting for someone to call or msg me. I've been expecting unexpected calls from someone! Haish... I know I will never get those kinda calls. Sat at home watch very the funny Tuxedo. Did my normal prayers. Etc2...

Today I took the effort to wake up early but was still freaking late because the Nitec students occupied all the spaces in the bus lane 31... Wah liao! I'm happier when there are not many people ard in the school siah! So many characters, the mats and minahs. But I don't care much ar. They are also human who at least wanna study. I don't go around and call/hates mats or minahs for no reason. Huda brought along her camera and we took lotsa pics. Took one with my Adik (Amsyar) a.k.a Pak Dol. *muahaha* Will update it in my fotopages soon.

Now I'm writing this at MLC. Favourite place in the school!! *kekeke* Hmm... To peeps out there, don't play hard to get lah. Some people are sincere when it comes to the matters of the heart. Yes, it's a matter of time but if are waited too long, the bird will just fly away. I'm proud to say some of the peeps I know just won't give up easily. Keep it up! Patience is a virtue.

To Hidayah a.k.a Chek Yah: HappY 19th BirthdaY gal! May ur hopes and dreams come true! Miss Ya~...

~U GoT a PrObLeM WiTh Me U BeTTeR SaY iT tO mY FaCe~

*-= CoNfEssIoN oF a bRoKeN HeArT - LiNdSaY LoHaN =-*

As'kum. Wow... It's Friday already, tomorrow is Saturday, the day after tomorrow is Sunday. Then start of a brand new week again. *haish* Some people will go Wohoo~! coz its the weekend but not me. Its gonna be the same old routine. Vocal class then slack at home. Boring~!

Let's see what I've been doing this past week shall we.

Monday: Ms Choo was supposedly give us tix to the Chingay parade BUT! decided not to coz of the molestation case. whatta freak!? Of coz the class protested but it falls on deaf ears. freak! Didn't go for PTX in the morning coz acco Eera (she didnt go for ETP). For BCM, Eera, Jun, Huda and I played hang man. We were bunch of laughing monkeys laughing all the way! *ahakz*

Tuesday: Hari Raya Haji

Wednesday: Had my P.E test which I didn't take last week. Lucky Mr *miang* Azlan was leading us thru, if not I'll just scribble wateva ans I think best suits the qn *haha* During BCM, that moronic Mrs Sim -Lim-Sq kept nagging at us. Felt like stuffing her mouth with a sponge! For PIE, the usual, it was laughter all the way for Jun, Eera and I! Feel like we offended some people, but didn't cared anws.

Thursday: Didn't go for first lesson (IAC). Was so freaking lazy to wake up early in da morn'. The day before, I was so full of ideas to do my BCM project but no resources! Argh~! So I went for BCM that I intended not to go! That Mrs Sim-Lim-Sq was still nagging abt our performance in class. I went BALISTIC!! Threw my tantrum on MSN and my friends around me. Got freaking pissed to the slightest thing. Sorry guys...Really very sorry. (nak dekat kot...nak dekat ape eh?..nak dekat mampos!) *haha!* Joking! I was rushing to finish my overdue draft. Thank God its finished and passed up. Freak U~! I HAD TO REDO EVERTHING! Troublesome~. Had my PTX CA test also. My brain shutdown early so didn't had the mood to do it. Just wrote wateva shit I noe. 50% will be taken from the marks. I don't give a freaking care!!

Today: Didn't went AIC AGAIN! Haizz. Talked to Ms Choo about it already. For BCM, we had a debate about whats lucky and unlucky for both sexes. Hot topic! *muahaha* Went for lunch and talked about the people who died at Mekkah while doing their primilige (did I spell right??). Now Jun, Eera and I is at the MLC. Blog hopping to my fellow schoolmates. *ahakz* Later meeting Liza to acco her for a job interview at Eastpoint.

Sorry guys. Forgot to tell ya all something VERY important. Fort Minor is coming to our island on 1st March!! Argghh~!! I wanna go!! I love Mike Shinoda!! Anyone who are willing to acco me there?? *haha* And the most expensive tix is just $68!! Front row, standing room summore! Argh! I'm saving start next week to watch them. You bet! *LOL*

Basically, this whole week I've been coming to school late and missing alot of my 1st period lessons. *sigh* Gonna do something about it. And it's been raining the whole week but fortunately today the Sun is shining brightly. Wee~! I brought my jacket along just in case. Alotta things at school is happening also. I had a screw loose somewhere. Been behaving quite weirdly, talking crap also. *haha*

To YOU: Sorry about the Hetty Sarlene song. U'r only related to it by the song title only! Not the lyrics to it. *muahaha* Jgn pikir mcm2 hah. These few daes been talking alot of crap lah!

To Fir: Ur ignorance towards me is frustrating. All of a sudden u didn't msg me. Why? What'd I sae to upset u? And also I'm very sorry that day I didn't acco you to the airport coz I was having lessons in the afternoon. Sorry if you think I was being cold and unintrested. *sigh*

To all of you reading this:

*-= Siapa Diriku Di Sisimu - HeTtY sArLeNe =-*

Hembusan angin bagai membawa berita
Berita yang mengecewakan ku
Apa yang terjadi bukan yang ku impikan
Namun ku tabahkan hati ini
Sayangku, ku tahu kau tak ingin begini
Tapi kau sanggup lakukannya
Betapa hati ku hancur musnah berderaian
Tidak seorang pun yang memahami hati dan perasaan ku

Kerna cintakan mu ku jadi begini
Kerna sayangkan mu ku telan semua
Betapa hebatnya kau di hati ini
Kenapa kau tak pernah fikirkan aku
Kenapa si dia jadi pilihan mu
Ku sedar siapa diriku di sisi mu...
Di sisimu...

Ku harap suatu hari kau kan mengerti kasih
Siapa diriku di sisi mu
Pengorbanan ku bagai tak pernah dihargai
Ia bagai angin yang berlalu
Sayangku, ku tahu kau tak ingin begini
Tapi kau sanggup lakukannya
Betapa hatiku hancur musnah berderaian
Tidak seorang pun yang memahami hati dan perasaan ku

Kerna cintakan mu ku jadi begini
Kerna sayangkan mu ku telan semua
Betapa hebatnya kau di hati ini
Kenapa kau tak pernah fikirkan aku
Kenapa si dia jadi pilihan mu
Ku sedar siapa diriku di hati mu

Kasih...

Betapa hebatnya kau di hati ini
Kenapa kau tak pernah fikir hatiku
Kenapa si dia jadi pilihan mu
Ku sedar siapa diriku di sisimu

Di sisi mu...

This is dedicated to a particular person named, YOU. Don't wanna mention names coz it's not appropriate. Not at all related to any of my ex's especially Ahmad Muzzakir.
It's a very touching song. I was even called Hetty Sarlene in my vocal class coz I sound like her! *eeewww~!* I don't quite fancy her but I love this song. Lyrics courtesy of Huda *thanx*

~I'm FrEaKiNg PiSSEd!~

*-= JuJuR - RaDjA =-*

Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi cinta
Tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama
Jauhi diriku
Lupakanlah aku ohh...
Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi suka
Tinggalkanlah aku bila tak mungkin bersama
Jauhi diriku
Lupakanlah aku
Selamanya...

As'kum guys! Back again from holiday.. *hehe* Pdhal cuma satu hari jer eh. Quite boredz ar coz I just sat at home the whole day watch t.v programmes like 2005 Billboard Awards and The Hot Chick. Funny sehz!! *LOL!*

Nothing much to say lah today. Just here to release my boredom. Now having BCM then later got PIE!! Yahoo~!

About my previous entry... I assure you I will say something and do another thing the next moment. *haha* I can be quite fickle minded sometimes.

The above song says it all...

Btw, Happy Birthday to Abdullah and Happy 4 year Anniversary to Aishah & Abdullah. *haha* 2 in 1 celebration. Wow... How I wish I had that long a relationship... *sigh*

~I'm OuTta HeRe~

*-= BeAuTiFuL DiSaStEr - KeLlY cLaRkSoN =-*

Ahlan Wah Sahlan peeps! Here I am writing again with a new blog skin! Wee~! I really love it, do u? *smiles* This time I’m gonna be less in words. Cuz I’m trying to overcome the predicament (did I use the right word??!!) I endured on Saturday after vocal class.

I’m so upset that it NEARLY made me lose all my respect to the person I look up to the most.

Well, wattodo... Boys will be boys.

I still can't accept it tho. It really was a mismatch of character. *Aimi!! Why are you so upset just because of one ciggie???* I don’t like guys who have that habit lah. Sigh...

Anyways, after vocal class I went to Orchard with Su and Sharin. For the first time he was with us cuz usually he would head home straight after vocal class. We were supposedly to watch Khalil perform coz he had a dance item with his mates at the X! CAPADE. But darn we missed it!! Then met up with the other guys (Aidil, Shahid and Hussien) at McD Centrepoint. Along the way I saw Nurul Ain, Tajlee with Zaihar and Johari (to Jo: all the best in ur NS tis April!). Whatta freak! We rounded Centrepoint 3 times and went to OG which had no freaking KFC cuz earlier on they say they were at KFC! I was so damn tired and quite pissed as I was on heels!

Then I saw Khairul Anwar sitting with them!! Argghh...!!

*Muahaha* Hell no it wasn't him! He was a friend of the guys lah who happens to look like Khairul Anwar. So cute! I like his hair. The guys had their dinner. Su, Sahrin and I didn't join them coz we had something earlier. I had mine which I bought from KFC Takashimaya. There were no seats available so we sat at the corner before meeting them at McD. Just sat there keeping quite and interrupting here and there while they eat. They were so engrossed with the topic of reminiscing the old silly songs like Las Ketchup, Chihuahua song (Coke advert), Dr Bombay's Calcutta, Vengaboys and also the stooopid "pre-school" song on Perfect 10. *haha*

After dinner we went home. That was when my predicament began. Well, haizz... Letting go of it Su and Hussien, don't worry. Sharin could feel how I feel at that point of time. Its ok its ok. *hush* Just don't tell anyone okay guys. Hmm... After that we all took the MRT home. Accompanied Su to Tampines then I took 72 from there. Reached home around 11. There was Superman 1 on tv2 but I dozed off. So freaking tired.

Yup guys! Be informed my hp no 933 can be used again. Wee~! Just don't delete the number that you have. Just in case it got cut off again.

~~~

I feel so at ease now. At home I’m occupied with prayers. I’m not getting all emotional or involving any feelings to anything that has happen to me now. Had a peaceful mind after so long. Last year really is last year’s news! I’m over 2005! So happy *smiles*

For that freaking idiot who thinks you can smile and stare at me anytime you want, don’t even think about it! I’ll never be smiling at you again.

Relationship for me this year? Nah… I rather not have anyone. I don’t feel as if I have the right to like anyone also. It’s always one sided. Well I just have to blame myself coz when someone wants me, I played hard to get or just gave them the cold shoulder. So it’s karma. Who cares anyway?

By the way… Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all Muslims and Happy Holiday for the non Muslims! Wee~! Assalammualaikum…

To Eera and Kamil: *hehe* Thanks for burning my cd and pity Chomel who fell down from the 10th storey!! kesian nye!! haish... Lucky cats have 9 lives. Hopes she get well soon yeah with your care. *hehe*

~hEaLiNg A DiStUrEd MiNd HeRe~

*-= So SiCk – NeYo =-*

Assalammualaikum! Ahlan Wah Sahlan semua! *wahahah* Its in Arab so the translation is Peace be upon you and hello to ya all! *heheh* Wee~! Fara, Izad and Anuar came back yesterday! Lotsa pictures of my favourite band, Peter Pan! Liza sebok jer dgn Ariel ku! He’s mine! *wakaka* Gonna upload pictures to my fotopage. It’s at my [Links] btw. A lot of old pics lah… And I wanna say a special thanks to Aidil, Amsyar, Huda, Liza and myself *bluek* for the fotos that are displayed in mua fotopage and blog! Wee~! I’m going all excited here so let’s just get it on with my entry for today. As ya all know by now I love to recap cuz cant update on the spot. No net at home mah. Heh.

Yesterday supposedly our class had P.E, well actually we had lah, but all the Malay students didn’t go for it. So I didn’t go lah siah. I was with Amy btw. Both of us were full of enthusiasm to do High Element but whatta freak!? Don’t have sehz! So we just hide away, went to Café 1 to grab some snacks. Met up with Eera, Ana, Alvin, Amsyar and Abid. They had video thingy audition but weren’t interested so we all decided to go for P.E last min. Mr Azlan (miang tak jadi) teacher was giving a test. WTF!? P.E?? TEST?? Summore it was difficult he told Amy and I. Only with his guidance we could do it. The rest did it earlier but we chose to do it next week. It’s mostly questions relating to biology about bones *huh?!* We’re not the Sports Management students okay! I didn’t had food during lunch. Wasn’t hungry. Weird! Then during BCM did a question on facsimile. Quickly finished that to msn with mua peeps. Padahal pat sebelah2 jer. *haha* After that we had P.I.E, not the food pie ah!! Wee~! My favourite subject! *haha* It’s like life skill, knowing and understanding yourself better. The teacher (sorry ‘cher I dun noe ur name =p) is very sweet and he’s a fun person. Showing us lotsa funny and inspirational clips and make us do a lot of fun activities. Always rewarding us with M&Ms *haha* It seems to be the favourite subject of my other classmates too! And to Mak Jah (Wani) and Mak Ti (Syafiqah): Your kueh baulu will be ready by my mum, Mak Kuntil, when you deposit your money ok. Kesian Yazzid anak Mak-tak-tau-name-saper *haha*. You guys know, I know what is it I’m referring too… *wakakak* Kekek lah layan karenah korg!

Anw! *haha* The class ended at 4.30 after the teacher showed us some clips from the movie Patch Adams. Eera, I wanna borrow the VCD! *hehe* Jun and I went to Café 1 to have our late breakfast-cum-lunch while Eera went to meet Kamil at Bedok. Nurul Syahidah! Don’t do that to me again! Sneaking up on me like we’re in a scary movie! The weird thing is Jun Jonet didn’t even realize Nurul was behind me. We were sitting opposite each other FYI. After that I heard someone calling me. Hantu mane pula ni panggil aku??! *haha* It was Hussien! His hair was in a mess cuz he just finished P.E. *haha* He was with some boys. He didn’t join them for lunch tho and instead sat with us. Talked a lot about the secrets of Singapore Idol. I’m so shocked, likewise Jun. Not sure whether to join onot coz really wanna concentrate on my studies. All the stuffs about vocal class and singing audition came out. Hey, he’s the experienced one! Jonet, join lah vocal class! *haha* It was raining cats and dogs so we waited till it drizzle when we moved from the cafeteria. I took 12 with Jun. Dropped at Pasir Ris. She and I used coins for bus fare and that freaking bus driver only gave us one tix instead of two, which I took. Unfortunately the bus conductor board the bus! WTF?! Kan chiong sak Jun sampai sanggup nak trun bus. *haha* Then I saw this bus tix on her lap when she took out her lanyard. I thot the driver gave us 1 tix!? Rupenye, it was the bus tix which she took in the morning! *haha!* Lucky it was bus no.12 also. The conductor checked briefly and tap her ezlink on her thingy-mejik. Jun got away. Got scared for nothing! Lucky I saw the ‘extra’ tix *haha* Reached home late and alhamdullilah I was in time for Maghrib prayers and qada’ the ones I missed. Yeah, maybe gonna pay my debts for not fasting tomorrow or a.s.a.p *hehe* Hey, I’m trying to change to be a good girl here. Same goes with Eera. It’s for the best right Eera…? People change in time.

Here’s something for ya all that I learn from my P.I.E lesson:

If a child lives with criticism, he learn to condemn
If a child lives with praise, he learns to appreciate
If a child lives with hostility, he learns to fight
If a child lives with tolerance, he learns to be patient
If a child lives with ridicule, he learns to be shy
If a child lives with encouragement, he learns confidence
If a child lives with shame, he learns to feel guilty
If a child lives with approval, he learns to like himself
If a child lives with fairness, he learns justice
If a child lives with acceptance and friendship,
He learns to find love in the world…
Poem written by: Dorothy Law Nolte

“The world does not have to change…The only thing that has to change is your attitude” as said by Gerald. How true ain’t it?

Sorry if my entries are always long like a composition as said by a friend *haha* If you hate to read them, you can jolly well and get lost! Cuz I love to write and in details about everything I wish to say. And also I love to give alotta advice/motivation in life. It’s also called sharing to improve/touch the lives of people reading these *smiles* Take care guys! N u really noe that I really care for ya all =)

~HaPpY cHaNgInG~

*-= GeReK – PhAtNaTRiX =-*

Assalammualaikum! Wohoo~! New year, new me, new resolution, everything new! 2006 will be a whole lotta things happening. I’m so looking forward to it! Looking forward to new batch of people at school, new activities, there’ll be the Singapore Idol auditions and what more, stress! *haha* Funny me asking for stress. This time around I’m really gonna materialize my resolution insyaAllah. Actually there’s a lot more but let’s just keep it to myself aite. *heheh* Wanna share some tips on how you can make your resolution happen yeah… 1st, u must be able and prepared to take the risk and fall. 2nd, must have determination and preparation. 3rd, confidence. You must have confidence in yourself but not too over confident aite. 4th, everything must come with faith in God. Prayers. Very important, coz with that, everything will go smoothly. 5th, without support from your loved ones too we may not achieve what we want, so its best we always treasure and appreciate them while they are still around to support you =) Lastly, your resolution got to be realistic man!! Cause if it isn’t, how you gonna change yourself!? That’s about all for resolution in the new year.

What did I do during my hols? *haha* Basically I stayed home most of the time but I did went out and spend some time with my family and friends. Last Sunday (Christmas Day) I went to watch Ria Hit 15 at Tampines. Got dance competition. Congrats to Zaihar for winning the solo dance category! Syamsul mesti ada tau. *haha* And took pics of Khairul Anwar (cute!!) and Syed Azmir. Cute kids also were asked to go up stage to sing along to Ahli Fiqir’s Angguk-angguk Geleng-geleng. Cute sehz!! Anw, I didn’t like one freaking beeyatch who dance around the artiste as if she was in a club. WTF?! Then on Wednesday I met my sis to go Bedok CC to surf the net. Before that met Eera and her boyfren to pass her a CD. Coincidentally I bumped into Anuar and Izad. They were waiting for Farhan to go Sentosa. Thursday I accompanied Aishah to the clinic cuz she had back pain. Hang out with her for awhile at Compass Point. Missed her a lot man! She’s always busy with work! Then on Friday I went out with my bf (best fren lah!) Liza. Actually I planned to go out with Liza, Suhana and Farhan but! Haiyo…Lain yang jadi. Turn out me, Liza, Fara and Nor meet at City Hall. Saw Danial Zul along the way. Took lotsa crazy photos at Kampong Glam Café. I discovered a new shop, well it’s new to me tho. *haha* It’s House of Japan along Arab Street. Cool~! Then on Saturday met up with Suharty and Ifa at Ang Mo Kio MRT station. We headed for Cheng San CC to see Aidil and Shahid perform. Nampak ajer org lambai Aidil eh. *haha* Of cuz we were supporting ‘em lah. The audience in the front stage was spraying party ribbons at him *haha* Spiderman pun tak dapat lah. Then there was this Uncle who teased me, asking whether the handsome guy is my boyfriend. *huh??* Which handsome guy he referring to seh? Aidil or Shahid? *haha* Of coz I said neither lah. Su explained to him that we are all vocal classmates. *haha* it was funny tho wondering why he said that. Padahal Su yg bising pekik2. (Anw, one shocking revelation that Ifa told me. She said that Mr Baron is a Muslim! Gosh! That’s good. *hehe* No wonder the guys always greet him, beri salam all that) But frankly speaking, Aidil is really a good catch. Any girl will be very lucky who gets him. Humble, simple, hilarious, good character and good singing (bonus!). If me, I will not let that chance go by sehz! *haha* But wattodo, I like him as a big brother who is a good inspiration for singers wanna be like me and also, I like someone else *evil grin* For Shahid wise, *thinking* He’s funny, humble, rubber faced, sometimes proud of his cuteness *heheh*, loves to sing and he’s a sweet guy basically.

Sunday and yesterday just stayed at home watch boring TV programme with mum cuz she wasn’t working for four days straight. Wa liao! Manusia2 yg tonton series DIA on Suria boleh jadi BIYOL seh tengok ragam Fifie! *muahaha* Well anw, today is the start of a new day at school for year 2006. Gonna be the end of year 1 soon in ITE for the June ’05 intakers. With determination and friends who are with me, we can all survive final exam guys! Then the seniors are gonna be graduating. Wah so sad man… Gonna miss Saadah and Liyana. *sob sob* ouh yeah, haizz… I lost my specs before school closed *sob sob again* Gonna buy new specs soon IF I have the money! *sigh*

Today at sch...normal lessons. Ms Choo told me my marks for the last test. Alhamdullilah! 100%!! Yahoo~! *hehe* Akcerli, i expected it ar *smiles* Haiz. Mcm2 karenah pat skola. Just something for ya all: Jangan mencari kesalahan org lain jika kesalan diri sendiri itu tidak disedari! Translation: Don't find fault in others when you haven't notice the fault that already lie in urself! Well, 2mrw or 2day Anuar, Izad and Fara is coming back to S'pore frm KL. They went to watch Peter Pan in concert! Wah~!!! *jealous* Liza lend them her camera. Gonna ask for the pics and put in my fotopage. *haha* Its not official yet tho. Upload my pics first then let ya all see =) Well that’s about all for today folks!

~HuGs N KiSsEs~