*-= KiAn - MaWi =-*
** Listen to the lyrics of the song KIAN properly. It's really what I'm feeling this week. **
Assalammualaikum....
It's been awhile since I wrote in to this 'FOR LEASE' blog of mine.
Well, do I have time? It's 11.47am now, and lesson will start very soon. Arh, nvmd! Lemme finish this first. FAST GAME!
The past few days I've not been well. Mentally and physically ILL!
My gums was sooo swollen I couldn't sleep last Sunday. Cried my heart out. When I woke up, it was really painful and my eyes was swollen too from all the crying. I was so damn tired, I didn't went to school.
Went to the dentist in the afternoon with mum. The doc said it's my wisdom tooth. To pull a freaking tooth cost $350! OMG!
As I didnt have the cash and wasn't prepared anyway to pull it out, I just asked for some painkillers. It's going well tho but still cant open up my jaw to eat. It freaking hurts!
That was physically...
For mentally. I was quite upset with him. I freaking dun understand why I just can't accept the fact he did what he did. Well, other guys keep it, but why must I be agitated by his actions?
It puzzles me alot. And mind you, I've been trying so hard to accept that fact. Now that he no longer need to book in during the weekdays, seriously, I'm very worried. Yeah2, laugh all you want. When he's inside, I'll miss him. But when he's out, I worry the hell outta him. Bcoz? Bcoz he has start his posting and werking 9-5pm or so. And I'll be worried if he's out somewhere else besides werk (after finish werk) that is...
I'm just so psyched up!
It's true what he did say that I denied. My trust for him is slowly deteriorating... Damned!
Hate to admit it but it's true.
On Sunday when I was on my way home from werk, in the bus, the emotions was slowly creeping in. Upset about myself and about him. Tears was flowing. I hope I didnt arouse any guilt to the person siting beside me that day.
Slowly, I'll try to be that person you want me to be. But no promises.
Btw, dont forget tonight, AMERICAN IDOL IS ON!! =)
~~ Still Healing The Pain, Slowly but Surely ~~
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