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A Day W/O Acknowledging You was The Day I MiSS u THIS much..

He's in camp undergoing his reservist in KINS. 3 weeks in-camp training. I only get to see him weekends. On weekdays? We hardly talk or sms cuz he's always outdoors and I'm on afternoon or night shift these few days. He's always in bed early. I miss him. I really really miss him. I'm maintaining the emotions believe me and so much have been dugged out from my "trashes" by that someone. I don't care. I'll just ignore all of it. I don't care to explain.

Anyways, I've been feeling pretty out of my skin lately. Don't know. Feeling of dont know, don't care and also heck care; work wise and life wise. I wanna get back to myself. I wanna start praying again. I've neglected alot of things. Dear Allah, please lift this lazy spirit off my soul. Let me once again be that girl who always meet you 5 times a day. Amin.

Prayers aren't enough, I need action. And I feel like quitting my job and find myself an office job - just for the weekends off. Its hard when he works office hours and I work 3 shifts. I don't wish to continue when I'm married even. I wanna be a FT Housewifey.

I love him. I have always, will and still loving him. He may have done certain things but it doesn't change how I look at him not on the outside, but the inside. I love him. He can make me smile, laugh and cry all at the same time. He can still give me butterflies and make me nervous for our every meeting. He can make me smile unconciously just by looking at his first appearance when we meet. We know what's our future gonna be and know's where we are in this big picture called Life. I pray that Allah will always bless our relationship and I pray that our parents will always give their never ending blessings.

I look forward to our first step to being officially binded and officially reserved just for each other. I miss you Muhammad Shahid Haron. I look forward to our date this Saturday. I look forward to talk to you on the phone at night on Friday.

Lastly, I hate shifts.

P/S: Looked up at Jetstar and they have a promo for Phuket return tix at a frigging $58/pax! WTF!? THAT FRIGGING CHEAP LARH! Sigh, too bad sale promo is till 15th March. If not, I'd already grab it, w/ or w/o the other peeps confirming their presence to Phuket with me and Dear. Some people just don't know how to BEDEK. Hmm. Learn from the expert - ME! It's ok. Will plan with Dila, Hussien and Amsyar again soon after they have settled in their new respective jobs. Planning for July. Hope it will materialize a.s.a.p.

P.P/S: I just had a new member in the house, I call her Sayang. Pls dun flood my tagboard. So damn unnecessary. And childish.