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If I were A Boy with A mind of A Woman

Let me tell you a story about a very good friend I know.

Seriously sometimes she think you dont care at all. Publicly. A girl needs to be flaunted to her guy's friends.

You know like in Facebook. Its a media where everyone can see the on goings even if it disgust them or makes them uncomfortable with the public dispaly of affection. Its not like the guy does not have internet on his mobile. He does and he views them frequently but where does he go to? Comment on his friend's fotos and wall posts or links. Where does that leave her? She's been posting too, sometimes well most of the times was about him. And what did he do? Abso-f**king-lutely nothing. He just knows its there. Its good that he will reply privately thru smses about the posts but sometimes a girl needs them to be publicly displayed.

She gets jealous and she wished that her guy was like one of her friends. They post on each other's wall on what they miss about each other, giving the encouragement towards each other, openly saying two of the 3 letter words. Actually, she always did that, even go to as far as tagging him on a vedio that she dedicated to him. All of it which was unreciprocated. Sad isn't it? I pity her. I really pity her. It wasn't always about the quarrels that sometimes they fight about like the small things in life. Sometimes the smallest thing to him means the whole world to her.

Like two days ago, she was jokingly saying that she didn't wanna help him. Oh common! Which selfish biatch wouldn't wanna help her guy right. Its only lending him a document to purchase something that he needs. But he decided to took it the wrong way and said that he won't trouble her and that he will ask help from his dad. Hello, in the first place if she didn't wanna help she would have tell him off at the beginning. She got really mad and wouldn't speak to him. She drank the ribena he bought her only becoz she felt that she shouldn't waste the water.

She is still not talking to him. For so many reasons that she's angry about. Sometimes she wished that he thinks more like a woman than a jerk. You don't see her profile picture that has him in it. Coz she's not proud of it. She's too immersed in herself, so proud and egoistic. She wished she was single. Really coz to her since the beginning of time, man are jerks. They just don't understand or put themselves in our shoes. Its us that needs to satisfy their needs, well, what about our needs? Its just a simple act. She's not asking for a stalk of rose for the special occasion, or want him to buy a box of chocolates randomly just to fill her love for chocolates, or buy her a nice jewellery just so she has something of him on her body, nope, she's not materialistic. She just needs him to openly display the love.

I cry just telling her story. It's just too depressing.

She told me something today. As days go by, she just can't stand him anymore. He's just so insensitive. The 3 letter word feels like nothing. All the times that they get intimate, she just gets bored easily, coz its the same thing they do that just makes it not special anymore over time. They don't hold hands anymore like they used to; he used to never let go for even one sec until she said to him that she is uncomfortable. That's how much holding hands they used to do. Not anymore. They don't hug anymore even. The kissing is nice but it just lost it's touch over time. She love the warm hugs but never got them anymore. That is why the teddy that he gave her, she never hugged him again.

She also said that she didn't wanted to get tied down, 'fraid of what marriage will do to them. Like how it did to her parents, her grandparents, her great grandmother, her aunts...Are all men that jerks'? She wished she could get back to the time of just knowing and being friends with him without any strings attached. It was the best time to just talk about each other, being friendly, getting to know each other better, doing fun stuffs and the secret of liking each other that was thrilling...its was really the best times of her life, but being attached and in a relationship just spoils it all. The heart aches and quarrels and whatever it is bad came with it (being in a relationship).

Sigh..I hope things get better for her. I hope not becoz of this post, he will change. Coz it's not anticipated anymore. Coz he already knows. Where's the surprise of it? Nowhere.

Aite peeps, I've been sweating just writing this long winded entry. Its so damn hot these days. And I don't blame the weather. Dear God, please forgive our sins. Amin.